Happy Holiday!

I got a card from my brother via email yesterday. i miss him. its weird. i haven't seen him in person for many years now. we hardly talk on the phone, but yet were close. we have the strangest brother/sister relationship which drives my mother crazy. she hates it that we don't talk on a regular basis. we don't need too. and when we do talk its very short but sweet converstaion. and were ok with that. so...there my little brother sporting the big guns.

so its been a little while since ive posted. one of my goals for next year is to go back to journaling more often even if i don't have anything to say. ive made a few goals....not resolutions...but goals of things i want to accomplish in 2007.

1. restore my credit (which im actually working on now) and get out of debt.
2. work on the never ending battle of losing weight. only this time take it more seriously.
3. make some new friends....and have fun.

thats about it. so life has been a major bummer. im not digging the holidays and very ba humbug and thats just the way it is. im very depressed and lonely really. (see #3)

my car died. ive been without a car for about 3 weeks now. the first week i stayed with sarah and couldn't take it anymore so the second week i paid a friend to drive me back and forth and last week i rented a car. i was going to just keep renting but thats not working out for me either.

tuesday im going to a dealership near sarah and i might just stay with her this week coming up if that deal doesn't go through....but im hoping and praying it does even if i do have to pay and arm and a leg to get it....i have bad credit, i need a car.....but these people supposidly work with "bad credit no credit, no problem" like me...so hopefully they mean what they say and ill have a car by tuesday.

i got a new assignment at work which completely rocks my world. i totally love it. its something i know ill be at forever. i hope anyway. the best part is that im constantly busy so no time to slack off....lol and the days just fly by.

i feel really bad that i have nothing for anybody for xmas. im just broke!! i keep saying xmas is in january....lol

im trying to get out of this slumpy funk im in. a lot has to do with my car, being broke, im so lonely for companionship.....ive just completely given up on myself.....

one good thing....i am trying. i had 3 days this weekend. i told myself im going to get things done around here and ive been doing it. mostly done too. i have one room i need to battle...sarahs old room. she still has stuff here and i need to move some stuff around.....ive got bags of garbage piling up ready to go out. ive been cleanning. lol just getting rid of everything. that will be my goal for tomrrow. that and mopping the floors.

if this was 20 years ago, i'd be sitting on my aunts couch opening presents with my family.

Merry Christmas.