Still Sick

Ugh...This has been the worst few days of my life. I hate being sick. I want my mommy...waaaaahhh!!

and the worst part is that these were the last few days to make any good money before my next check and I haven't been able to get on the phones at all since that would require me to 1. Have a voice to speak with and 2. Have air to breathe. Two of which I have none. I have a voice but ugh....I sound like something out of......I don't even know what....Like a trucker after smoking 2 packs a day for the last 50 years.....Not pretty folks. Besides that I'm barely auditable. I can hardly hear myself. I feel like I'm screaming when I try to talk and I hardly hear a thing.

on a good note though...I feel better today than I have these last 2 days. Today I feel like I might be able to do something....But then I'm afraid to over do it ya know....And make myself worse. I really want to get outside. Operation "fence in" has begun in the backyard and I would really love to get out there and help, but I know that I wouldn't be much help.

so yeah....The demo has begun on the backyard. The roomie has been talking about putting a fence up in the backyard and yesterday they started. The back yard is part grass, part driveway. The driveway part however has gotten really muddy from the all the rain and snow this winter and from me parking back there...Its like a big mud pit. The concrete part was all loose and cracked that it felt like it was just sinking in. So yesterday they started to pull it up. (they being the roomie and her daughter) with her dads help they bought most of the parts to put the fence up and hopefully weather permitting this project will be done soon. I just wish I wasn't sick cuz I really wanted to get out here yesterday and help. Its gonna be great for the dogs to be able to run around and not have to worry about other dogs or people. So that will be cool.

well here it is Easter weekend. My brother will be leaving tomorrow to go visit my mom in South Carolina with his kids and I'm gonna miss it. Easter used to be such a big holiday for us. I remember when I was a kid every year going to grandma's and spending the day with her. She would make a big meal (like any typical Italian family) and the pies....mmmm. Back then I probably dreaded it, but now....I miss those days. Holidays just don't seem the same to me anymore. Its more of a chore now. Its Easter weekend and it really doesn't feel like anything special. Maybe cuz I'm sick, maybe cuz I'm older, maybe cuz I don't have little kids, I don't know...Its just not that big of a deal anymore. I'm sure if I wasn't sick I would boiling some eggs by now though. That was something I always liked to do. Decorate eggs. Then eat them. heh egg salad for days!!

well I just finished my tea and my oatmeal and now I'm going to blow my nose and lather the vicks on and I think I'm going back to bed now. I think I just need to rest. Sarah is at work so I don't need to be up. Its just me my roll of toilet paper and buster keeps me company. Life is good.

happy Easter everyone!
hugs, jeannine