Me Again.....

isomnia has definitely entered my system. And its not because I sleep all day long, cuz I don't. I'm not up at the crack of chickens either, but I'm up by 10'ish and for whatever reason I can't seem to sleep at night. I try. I lay there, stare at the ceiling, then the back of my eyelids, back to ceiling again, the clock.....Watch the minutes drag on by.....Then I'm up and sitting here. Its probably stress. I lay down and my mind is flooded with worry about money and no job.

I went to 3 more agencies this week so far. I have another one or two to go to tomorrow. Hopefully someone will get something for me. I can understand one agency not calling...But all 5.....Come on now. There has got to be something out there for me. Today I went to this one place and the rep that was helping me was so on my level and understanding of my needs, even could have sent me on a job TODAY if I only knew payroll......(which I'm sure I could have worked my way through it but it wasn't on my resume, therefore...I don't know it) but that didn't work out. They make you take these test to test your skills, like for typing and the MS package and I totally ACED them all. I did better today than I did yesterday. prolly cuz I've been doing so many. She tested me on MS Access which I told her I didn't know much of but got 65% write on it, which means I answered more than half of the 30 questions write. So I knew more than I thought. My typing test was awesome too believe it or not. LOL I typed 65 WPM with 95% accuracy. No shit. She was really impressed. I scored a 98% on Word and 95% on Excel and 82% on PowerPoint. betcha didn't know I got skills. I thought they were pretty easy questions. But since I didn't have to use any of this for the last 3 years...I think I did pretty damn good. So I cross my fingers that she will come through for me. Funny thing is is there is this company that I really want to get into and tonight for the first time I saw there truck pass in front of me and I NEVER see this truck, so I'm gonna hope its a sign and pray.

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did anybody watch the grammys on Saturday? I try to catch the show every year cuz at times its entertaining and I watched last Sunday and OMG it was the worst show!! That song that they put together for the tsunami disaster was awful!!! Did they really expect people to just flock to the phone after hearing them sing it and download it??? Ugh...I thought it was horrible. They all sounded so bored singing it. They all looked like little high school kids getting in front of an audience for the first time and just singing this song so they can get it over with. It was horrible. I only hope that the studio version (if any) sounds better.

one pivotal moment for me however and I will never forget this in all my years to come is when Melissa Etheridge came out on stage. I don't know if you all know this but I am a HUGE fan of ME. I LOVE HER!!! (I know what your thinking...Yeah you and every other lesbo on earth....AND SO??? Is that so bad???) I've been a fan of hers since way way back when. I remember her first appearance on the grammy's when she came out and sang "bring me some water" and right then...I fell in love. I had to know who this person was. It was Melissa. I became a fan that day.

if you haven't heard she was diagnosed with breast cancer back in the summer and has had the surgeries and is now ok. However she is now finishing up the chemo. When I found out about this I was devastated. I couldn't believe this was happening to her. But she pulled through and she was good and I was happy again. It pretty much put is aside in my mind I guess and haven't really thought about it much since......Until Sunday night.

Janis Joplin is another woman I love to listen too. I just love her vibe, her voice, her songs....She's was just a great soul. ME did a tribute to her that night cuz she got some kind lifetime award and Joss Stone and ME sang a coupe of JJ songs. ME comes out..........And she's bald. BALD!! I think I held my breathe for the entire song I was so shocked and amazed and felt so much admiration for this woman at that moment that I couldn't even contain the tears. I was in awe. She just simply amazes me. I can't say enough about her. she's truly an inspiration to all of us.

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Well that's about it for me.....hopefully I can get some sleep now.

night