this sucks

Day one and I'm already hating this. I've spent the last 6 hours emailing, searching, applying, and getting some stuff done around the house. The house is quiet. You would think that I would enjoy this time alone. I never really get time like this. There is always someone home. But I don't. It sucks. Plain and simple.

I've been doing job searches and there are a few opportunities out there that sound good and i have applied for. I'm really torn about going back into the corporate world. Do i want to push paper again? Money wise I know it's better and to be honest that is my only motivation right now. That and the fact that I hate staying at home like this.

I ventured out to the post office today. I took Sarah to school, cleanned the house, doing laundry, walked the dog, made a nice veggie lunch and I'm on my 3rd cup of coffee. I applied for unemployment too but I really have my doubts about that because of the circumstances of my termination...i don't think i'll get it. This also sucks.

American Idol starts tonight and I can't wait. I'm hoping that Fantasia makes an appearance. I just saw her video for the first time (the tv is on for background noise, so im all caught up on my videos now) and she is just so awsome. I totally love her!!! That new J-Lo video was pretty good too. I'm not that crazy about the song but the video is nice. I think she's black again....not sure.

Well back to searchin.....