Random Thoughts & Needing Prayers

Sarah's new car!! She's very happy and no I haven't driven it yet. It was really sunny that day.

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it was Saturday night and I was tired of sitting home alone so I was racking my brain trying to figure out what I could possibly do when I glanced at the clock and noticed the time. 6:45

suddenly the lightbulb went off and I dashed to the bathroom for a quick shower knowing I was going to be a little late, I'm sure it wouldn't matter. 30 min later I was in my car heading toward my destination which was only 5 minutes away. I park my car and look around. Not to many cars here. Checking the building for sign of life and everything looks closed. hmm....I walk up one of the doors and I see some people way down this corridor but the door was locked and they didn't' hear me knocking. I'm thinking I'm not at the right door.

something just didn't seem right so I got back in my car and drove down the road a little to see another driveway and way more cars. This looked promising. I park. As I'm approaching the door I know I'm in the right place as I can hear the commotion coming from behind the double doors. I'm standing there taking a deep breath and I say out loud...."I can't believe that this is what is becoming of my life." I mean, I knew it come sooner or later but I was hoping it would LATER than sooner. Ah well...Such is life. fuck it.

I open the door and the choking cloud of smoke that is lingering in the air smacks me right away. The sea of gray is endless. I now know I'm in the right place. So I'm standing in the doorway observing. Watching the folks, looking for a familiar face (didn't see any) when a woman approaches me and asks me if I was looking for someone or did I want to join them. I told her that this was my first time here and I would like to join. I gave her my money, she gave me my items the constant yelling was familiar. Reminds me of my youth.

I set my items on the table, the nice lady was explaining some things to me where they were at and what is going to be next and then I hear it.....BINGO!! Yes folks...There I was excited as can be...At the bingo hall, hangin with the old folks.....

grandma would be so proud.

I did have fun and I actually did know someone there. She found me at intermission when I was getting some water, it was my old landlord from when I was living at the apartments. She's actually a friend/acquaintance of mine, also gay, who has been going there for the last 2 years so not only do I have a new obsession but I have a partner to go with.....Too much fun, I know your jealous!!
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so my brother is in the hospital. He's been there for about a week now. I'm going to copy and paste what he has cuz its kinda hard to explain...But he has Achalasia.

Achalasia is a swallowing disorder caused by two problems in the esophagus (the tube that carries food from the mouth to the stomach). The first problem is that the lower two-thirds of the esophagus do not propel food toward the stomach properly. The second problem is in the lower esophageal sphincter (LES), a circular band of muscle that lies at the junction of the esophagus and the stomach that helps prevent food from regurgitating from the stomach to the esophagus. Normally, the LES relaxes in response to swallowing, allowing food to enter the stomach. In patients with achalasia, the LES fails to relax, creating a barrier for food and liquids to pass into the stomach. Achalasia affects approximately 1 in every 10,000 to 100,000 people, and most people are diagnosed between the ages of 25 and 60 years. It is typically a chronic condition that initially worsens over time and does not go away on its own.

so he had the surgery and then a day later has to go back for emergency surgery cuz there was a tear in his stomach which was letting out gastric acid which could kill you if enough gets into your system. So it wasn't looking real good there.

before he had his surgery, before the doctor, he basically couldn't keep anything down at all and was down to 140 lbs. He's a tall guy, so that was really not good at all. Anyway, so He's still in the hospital and is very weak and I also found out tonight that He's lungs keep filling up with fluids. So if I was worried enough, now I'm down right scared. So please pray for a quick recovery so that he can go back home and be with his kids and be the daddy he loves to be. Thanks.
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well I guess that is it for now. Work is going great. I love it. They are going to be moving up to the second floor closer to the team I work with. I can't wait. She's been giving me more and more work. Its been great. And I'm learning a lot. So that is always a bonus.

I'm going to have a lot of new items this weekend at Trinket Trunk. Fun stuff!!

I'm going to bed now. 2am...That's about right.....Ugh

night