Monday

what a frustrating day. my weekend was quiet. didn't do a damn thing. as a matter of fact i hardly got out of bed on sunday. just one of those kinda days, ya know. the roomie was the same way. basically made our way to our couches and the bed and back. just that kinda sunday. well monday was no joy either. i come into work to hear all this talk that has been going on about me from one of my associates that works in my dept. aparently she thinks she can do it better. ARRRRGGGGGHHHHH!!! i just hate that. shes is the most two faced person i have ever met and even went as far as saying....don't let her know I said this.......ugh. well if she didn't want me to know than she should have kept her damn mouth shut. EVERYBODY talks. it might not have been the person she was talking to who told me, but she was talking loud enough for someone to hear and THEY told me. dumbass.

you know...its one thing to say shit behind my back but its another to be all sweet and innocent in my face. this coming from a person who is supposidly "my friend", who i have been trying to help out cuz shes a major problem in my dept and i have been trying to keep her from being a cashier. im just venting. this has been brewing all day. she came in today all smiles and i swear i hope she read between the lines as i shot daggers out of my eyes to her. not a happy camper!

im going to start seriously looking for another job. im tired of walmart. they work you to death and don't pay you for it. at one time i overlooked it and thought about the future....now....i need to think more in the present. this is not where i want to be in 5 years. the thought of going corporate again scares me a little. their really is not to much stability in that. but i will keep going along. until i find it.

im still bored with life. nothing changed in that dept either. im in such a rut right now and i can't even see my way out. how sad is that.