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Cutest Boys Ever!!!

2007-12-04T11:33:00.000-06:00

This is my friend Jeffrey with his boyfriend Allen. Jeff is Rebekah's best gay boyfriend. They have been friends for many years now. He is the sweetest boy ever! and Allen is so nice. they have been together for a few months now which in boy years that is truly a lifetime. Jeff is on a working cruise now in Europe for 4 months so Allen is spending some time with him. Beck will be going over the christmas holiday. so jealous!!!

Hello Friends!

2007-12-01T23:47:00.000-06:00

I'm a Dork
this was taken early in the morning

before coffee

Happy Holidays!! gosh can you believe it! december 1, yikes. Thanksgiving was great. i went to our friend Ben's families dinner. he was nice to invite me. beck went to visit her family. i was going to go but she was doing other visiting and so i decided to stay home and i was actually just going to cook for myself but ended up going with Ben and turned out to be great. it was a nice week actually. it was nice to have the place to myself and kinda regroup and just hang out. i realize that i have sleeping issues when im by myself and don't have anywhere to go the next day. i end up staying up all night and sleeping most of the day away which isnt' the greatest thing to do but was done. and im ok with that.

i spent some time with Ben and His girl kasia. had lunch with my friend shannon. we had thai and some sushi..yummy. im actaully going to have a sushi party next month and make my own. that should be fun.

...so we decided to paint the bedroom. she bought a gallon of paint a while ago, we needed supplies so off to the dollar store we go to pick up some things. came home and got the room ready for painting, moved stuff out, taped the edges etc etc.....and then she left for rehearsal for a couple of hours so in that time i got 3/4 of the room done (painted to where i can reach...basically) and when she came home around 11 and we finished the rest. it looks really good. honestly the room looks really good. its a nice warm color....not to girly not to masculine its actually perfect for her....cuz shes both girly and sporty so its really a great room. very cozy.

so i never did get to sleep that day. we ended up sleeping on the futon that night which was fine until the morning. i hate futons. lol our bodies were hurting from the futon and the painting...we were sore. lol so Friday is actually when we finished putting the room together. Ben (neighbor) and his hat (see pic above) called us in the morning on his way to dunkin donuts and wanted to know if we wanted anything and he bought us some bagels and hung out for a while. beck had to babysit for a couple of hours then on her way home she called me to get ready for dinner. we went to Mary's and had our low carb lettuce wraps which are really good and low in points. we ended up going to the dollar store again and bought a rug for the living room and two lamps for the bedroom and sheer curtains for the bedroom. the room is absolutely perfect.

so of course now the rest of the place is trashed. lol

but were going to rearrange and get paint for the rest of the apt and start doing that. most likely after the holidays. but for now the living room/dining room/office are being moved around and set in different locations. I'm hoping to have the place cleaned up by tomorrow. i have rehearsal for 2 hours and that's it. so i hope that while I'm gone she'll get some stuff done like go through all her craft supplies...ugh...and we can get the place civilized cuz i want to start decorating. lol were so excited about Xmas and decorating but both of us are like...not until the place is cleaned!! and its funny cuz neither one of us are going to be here for the holiday but were just going to celebrate after. which is just fine.

jeeze i still need to make my flight arrangements. ugh im going to see my mommy for xmas!!! yayayayaya im very excited and now since im not working i can spend a good amount of time with her which will be great! im thinking about 2 weeks. i think that will be good.

we have our weight watcher meeting on Saturday morning. i knew i gained. I'm pretty much right back to square one. ill get there..i know it. she's lost 14 lbs already. shes doing great. of course I'm doing all the cooking...so of course shes doing great. once things get better organized, shes going to start cooking again. after the meeting we went grocery shopping and being ridiculous in the car. it was so funny we were at the jewel and they were sampling wine. we hadn't eaten yet....lol....

Lets see i got up at 8:45 to shower,

she got up at 930,

we got coffee,

went to the meeting

went to Aldis,

then to the jewel

so its now about noon and all we had was coffee....

so here we go sampling wine...they give you like half a shot glass to taste and of course we tasted all 4.....and literally those 4 little shots went straight to our heads..lol. which led to more ridiculousness in the grocery store. we are such dorks. as were walking out of the store it was snowing (the first snow) and the two of us without a word stuck out our tongues to catch the flakes and l mean we didn't even say anything we just did it simultaneously.

it.was.the.funniest.fucking.thing.ever!

so that led us into hysterics. so funny. and of course the one liners of mmm taste like chicken and gosh I'm so full....you get the idea... so we went home.

Ben was walking Phil so she played in the snow with Phil who is becks boyfriend (Phil is a dog I'm sure you have seen him on my myspace page and if you haven't....why the hell not!! i put the link up over there on your right...use it!! you can check out Ben's pics on my space (hes a top friend) and you will see the cutest dog ever!) we put our groceries away and we decided to have shrimp cocktail and wine for lunch which we did and it was yummy.

so were having this snow storm!! omg...its was so windy here there is ice on our street and literally there is a sheet of hard ice on the cars. its amazing how quickly it formed. i hope that it gets warm enough tomorrow for it to melt some. i hope that we don't get hit to bad with snow. the winds that come off the lake are so strong i can't even imagine what the winter is going to be like. I'm really glad that i dont' have a job to go too right now. it would have been awful.

can i just say this one last thing..... looking at my calendar for December..... i have 2 more show before the season ends. season 2 starts in april,

3 Xmas parties,

1 fundraiser for becks play

then I'm going to SC to see my mom for xmas for a couple of weeks.

umm....hello life!!!

i was so miserable last year.....that i slept Christmas day away cuz i didn't want to see anybody. not one decoration the last 2 years. do you remember how depressed i was.

"thats about it. so life has been a major bummer. im not digging the holidays and very ba humbug and thats just the way it is. im very depressed and lonely really." dec, 06

now i can't wait to decorate. I'm so excited. we saw this pink feather tree that she fell in love with that I'm looking on the Internet for it but i doubt well get one. maybe next year.

LOVE YOU ALL!

"Another Time"...finally here

2007-10-05T00:45:00.001-05:00

so since my last post more things have changed. ive been a busy girl.

so i left off at the parade. ok well since then ive become more involved in the theatre company and am not part of the company. Production Manager would be my "official" title. im learning a lot. i am stage manager in training, sound tech, administrator (handling scheduling, rehearsals, dealing with the actors, etc.) and i love it. its fun, hard work, at times overwhelming, but i truly do love it and am thinking of pursuing a career. never to late i guess.

ive also moved.

im now living in chicago with rebekah. at first i was going to sublet her friends apt while he was away for 6 months, but we decided to just be roomies and save money since i was going to be at her place most of the time anyway...it just made sense. we actually live well together so that worked out...and then.....

i lost my job.

my postition was absorbed, so they no longer needed me. that was the week of sept 16th. im still unemployed. there is a part of me in panic mode (a very small part) most of me considers this a blessing in disguise simply because i was starting to not like my job anymore....it was getting oh so boring doing the same thing every day.

so i find out next week if i'll get unemployment and if that happens.....i will take the time to really find something i want to do instead of taking whatever i can get. i really want to work within the community for a LGBT organization. that is what i really want to do. so we'll see what happens. if i can take the winter off....i will be one happy camper. parking is going to be a bear around here.

so here are some pics for ya!!

I got a crazy new haircut!! a faux hawk. this was taken a few weeks ago. i don't alawys keep it like that but that is the style of it mostly.

this is me and cast a the parade in june. pic is small , sorry

this is what i see every morning when i walk out of my building. its about 50 ft away. when the sun is out the water is crisp and blue and simply gorgeous. i love living here. i am literally sitting in my car getting ready to go to work.

well its 1am and im getting sleepy. i do hope to update more often but honestly there really isn't much to talk about. today i woke up with beck, made coffee, drove her to work, came home, made myself something to eat, surfed the net for some jobs, picked up beck at noon, went to lunch, went food shopping, came home, took a nap, watched greys, did some theatre paperwork that ive put off way to long and have been sitting here since GA was over.

granted not every day is like this....this was a particularly light day.

tomorrow i have a closet to clean.

so you see.....really haven't missed much. :)

but thanks for sticking around!

love & hugs

jeannine

xoxoxoxoxox

Busy Busy Girl!

2007-07-03T23:04:00.000-05:00

WOW!! My life has completely turned around!! I went from "my so called life" to "Sex and the City" only not so much sex and whole lotta city. And I can't even begin to tell you how happy I am!

So let me introduce you to my friend Rebekah. Since the first day we met we clicked. and have been pretty much inseperable since. especially lately. ...more on that later. anyway...shes is this great, positive, beam of light, hysterically funny and i am blessed to have her in my life. ive talked about her before, she has a theatre company, ive posted her poster on the site for her show (which was yesterday and ill talk about that too). She just found out last week that she is now 2 years cancer free, in fact this weekend is her 2 year anniverary since her transplant. I can't say enough good things about her...shes just a beautiful person, inside and out.

so since knowing beck ive been hanging out in the city a lot. i go to her place a lot. it used to be a weekend thing i would crash there and hang out and now....i basically come home to get clothes and pay rent. which is why im home tonight.

so as i mentioned before Beck has a Theatre company (Bare Boned Theatre) because of that shes been involved is some fun activites that i have been helping her out on. the fundraiser was one. we had a blast and she raised more than she expected. THEN...one night were at her place and were making t-shirts for her cast for the Pride parade. Hamburger Mary's, the resturant/bar that is sponsoring her show invited her and her cast on the float to promote her show along with them which was very exciting. This year i was finally going to the parade with my friend Cindy cuz in the 8 years that i have lived her i have never gone to the parade. so since beck was going to be in it....i definatley wanted to go and support her and her company.

so were making these shirts and she says..."would you like to be in the parade?" and this is me...."are you fucking kidding me??"so not only was i going BUT I WAS IN IT!!! and it was by far one of the best days of my life!! oh. my. God. i have no idea how long the parade was in mileage but it was about 3 hours long. i can tell you that much. i wish i can say i did the whole thing.....i pooped out toward the last half hour.....and only because the floats were going faster and i just keep up. but the up to then, i. was. on! handing out the post cards, i was getting high fived, felt up by gay boys and girls!! seriously...they just put there hand out and touch your boob!! it was great!!! so many came out to hug me....my shirt was awsome!!! we had the BBT logo on the front and the pic of the poster on the back only mine had the logo going all across the front of the shirt makeing a rainbow stripe. it is fantastic. im trying to get some pics and ive been checking you tube to see if anyone captured us. we were number 163 out of 250 floats so not likely. but i have hope. there were pics taken so as soon as i get some ill show you. so i was in the Gay Pride Parade. OH...so like i said i pooped out toward the end. so i found this sushi resturant with window seating so i went in and finallyl sat down...i was overheated and im sure dehydrated some....so it was nice to get some food and water and watch the rest of the parade go by. so i text beck to let her know what happened....and we'll meet up later...she can pick me up since we drove together, EXCEPT......i have her keys.

so now...my happy day just turned ugly cuz everyones stuff was in her car and THANK GOD i forgot to lock her doors so they were able to get there stuff...but she needed to give 2 rides AND they still had rehersal to go too at 6 and it was 4. so needless to say i was upset and she was mad and things got a little tense so i got my food to go and started walking again to find a cab to get to her quickly which didn't happen so she told me that she got a cab and is coming to get me. at this point my self esteem shot to an all time low. the "i hate being fat" thoughts flooded my head...i should have finished the parade and beck was great, bless her heart....i was very comforting as i just lost it in the cab and i hated that!! she thought i was upset cuz she got bitchy and i didn't even care about that....i was so upset with my self for not finishing, for being fat, and forgetting i had the fucking keys!!! that lasted for about 5 min and all was good in the world. we were on our way home. it was a long fun tireing day and i will never ever forget it!!

so that was June 24th and since then i have been helping her more and more with her company and i am now a part of it!! she needs help. she does almost everything herself so i keep her orgainized and do things that i know i can handle. yesterday was opening night and man it as great. the turnout was fantastic! we got more people than expected and im learning more and more everyday. Production Assistant is what ill be doing and eventually in managment. really i don't care...i just want to be a part of it and help out where i can.

its been a lot of fun and now im fading. so ill continue this another time.....

4 + 1 = 5!!

2007-06-07T12:59:00.000-05:00

Hey have you heard??

Its my birthday!

I'm 5 today! WEEE

So its been a minute since I've updated. You would think was sooo busy. Don’t let my absence fool you….

Well let’s see……I did go on a trip to see my mom and that was awesome and way to short. I did get to meet my little niece and nephew who are completely adorable. Ill have pics up next. We had a great time.

And from the moment I stepped off the plane (May 22nd) until about last Friday (June 1st) I've been a sickly, diseased, infectious, dying person.

But I'm better now. Not 100%...but better.

So in that time as you can only imagine…I dragged my ass to work as much as I could until last Friday I could do no more and stayed home. I basically would come home and sleep. Coughing, sore throat, and this crap coming out of me was oh so attractive. I know you want to know all about my phlegm.

So pretty.

And other than spending time with my friend…..i really haven’t been doing much of anything. OH! Our office moved closer to home so that’s a plus.

So yeah! Today is my birthday!

Have a Fantastic Day!!

Hello Social Life! part two

2007-05-18T00:40:00.000-05:00

so its been a minute since ive been here. the social is picking up 10 fold. i have a new friend. been hanging with her a lot these days. its been really nice and lovely.

other than that there really isn't much going on. the fundraiser was awesome!! we had a lot of fun and a lot of drinks...lol it was great and she raised more money that she thought she would.

i realized today as we were getting breakfast in the "gay" part of town how much i miss living in the city. living around people like me. having that social life, and dinner parties, and just going out to these little places geared toward people like me. and even if there not.....were still there and its ok. i just really miss it.

so im on a jet plane in two days to visit my mom and I CAN'T WAIT!!!!

and thats really all i have to say right now. i just wanted to do a quick post to let you all know im still alive. just kinda busy. and thats a good thing.

MWAH!! MWAH!! MWAH!! MWAH!!

to you all

HEY CHICAGO!!

2007-05-07T13:52:00.000-05:00

BARE BONED THEATRE!

Come to Bare Boned Theatre's FUNdraiser on Wed., May 16. From 7-9 PM

Your $30 ticket gives you entry to the PARTY OF THE SEASON

Unlimited well drinks and entertainment like no other.
When we say entertainment, we mean ENTERTAINMENT!!!

Check it:

CABARET WITH GUILTY PLEASURES:
Jeffrey Bouthiette and Shannon Strodel will be cabareting til you can cabaret no more. Their sultry and soulful song stylings will make you swoon and beg for more. Don't beg: it doesn't suit a Queen like you!!!

THREE MAN IMPROV WITH TERRIBLE MURIEL:
Look forward to a gay old time with Mike Kosinksi, Tim Paul and Duncan Teater. This three man improv team will "yes/and" you until you are red in the face; and blue elsewhere. Zing!

SPOKEN WORD BY JAYSON BROOKS:
The sexy, talented and chocolaty brown, Jayson Brooks, will grace Mary's Attic's stage with his spoken word poetry. You haven't heard the King's English until you have heard Jayson Brooks' English. And he's dreamy! Yes, I said it. He. Is. Dreamy.

ROCKIN' IN THE FREE WORLD WITH FANTASY FOOTBALL:
Take a cold shower and bring some ice, because this group is TOO HOT to be missed. Hanna LoPatin, Sarah Pappalardo and Shannon Strodel are FANTASY FOOTBALL, an all-female three-part harmonied ROCK COVER BAND. These ladies are going off the rails on a crazy train and will rock you all night long with their covers of hard rocking groups like Queen, The Kinks, Billy Idol, Ozzie and more.

CALL 773.764.7645 to reserve your ticket or email us back here on myspace or at

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THIS PARTY IS GOING TO ROCK. BE A PART OF IT. HELP SUPPORT LIVE THEATRE. AND HELP BRING OUR LIVE SOAP OPERA TO ANDERSONVILLE!!

And remember, your $30 ticket is funding a dream.

Prizes and auctions don't hurt either!

See you there!!

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Beautiful Day!

2007-04-21T20:33:00.000-05:00

Hello world!

what a beautiful day we had today. 70 degrees.....perfect!

I almost wasted it away laying in bed. i was sooo lazy today. but i finally got my ass out of bed and got in my car and i decided to go to the marina and check out the boats and watch the water.

i took this today

this is the spot i like to go to think. its a small beach with all these rocks and to just sit there and listen to the water.....i love it. the sun was shining, it was warm, the water was calming....and my mind was just going.......

life, work, bills, girlfriends, other friends, where am i going, what am i doing, when am i going to do it!! when will i get my shit together?

all this goes through my mind and i sit there and talk out loud, sometimes cry, sometimes get mad, but in the end i always feel better.

spring is finally here.

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i think I'm allergic to my cat. I'm finding that i get a reaction on my skin after petting her. i really hope that is not the case. i would hate to have to get rid of her. but I'm itchy!!!

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so something really cool happened the other day. an old friend from High School found me on My Space and we have now reconnected. how cool is that!! AND.....shes gay! heh

sexy too....lol

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there is really not to much going on. work is good, I'm alive and soon........

i will be a success

Since you asked.....RENNY

2007-04-09T12:54:00.000-05:00

Thank you RENNY for that lovely comment….lol….smart ass. Actually its an Italian recipe and it’s an Easter pie. Here is a link to a receipe if you want to give it a shot! Good luck with that one…lol
http://www.eat-online.net/english/habits/easter/pastiera_napoletana.htm

I am completely bored out of my mind. I really don’t do bored well at all. Nobody to talk too…the internet is just not as entertaining as it used to be. Man I remember when I could spend hours upon hours just surfing stuff…..and now…..nothing. so bored. really don’t do bored well. I even went for a walk. Its kinda cold out. Dreary. Wish the sun would come out. I should probably appreciate the slow down…..tomorrow could be crazy and I would be wishing for this….no I wouldn’t. I like being busy. Better to be busy than be bored I say….damn right! Boredom sucks ass. My butt hurts from sitting here doing nothing. Already did my puzzle. Wish I could play poker. Did I ever tell you that I love smiley faces? I have a lot of them. I guess you can call it a collection. I see them every day. They make me happy. I can’t wait to see my mom. Can’t wait to go away. I hate it that I have no family here. Feels lonely. Especially around the holidays. I hate my chair. I'm always sliding out of it. constantly have to reposition myself. One of these days I'm going to find a piece of rubber to sit on so I won’t slide down. I'm wearing my baby blue shirt today…..with a smile on my face cuz I have highlights now and I feel damn cute again.

…..And there you have one minute inside Jeannine’s head……

Ok so if you couldn’t guess I'm at work. Very slow.

I'm going to see mom and the kids in may and I can’t wait!!! So excited.

I went out with the girls on Friday night to that comedy club again and again we had a blast. I recouped pretty much all day on Saturday and Sunday I was nursing cramps. Fun stuff I tell ya…I know you wish you could live my life…..lol

So there really isn’t to much going on per usual. At work, bored as hell, BORED AS HELL!!!

In case you didn’t know…….

Happy Easter!

2007-04-07T20:51:00.000-05:00

i know its a christmas pic but Easter is very significant of my grandma and its the only pic i have of her at the moment.

growning up Easter was spent at grandmas. mom and dad, my brother and sister, aunt and uncle, two cousins. every year we would get together at grandma's with plastic covered furniture, and a tv that sat in a big wooden fancy box on the floor with no remote and the 10 commandments was on. she would make lots of food, pot of sauce, some kind of pasta, lots of different meat, stuffed artichoke which was the favorite part of our meal, italian bread, antipasta salad, grain pies, pastries, cookies, candies made by my aunt,fruit, expresso, coffee, manhattan special........these are all the things that made Easter.

as she got older easter just became another day. kinda like today. nothing really special.

but i did get a special bunny treat from my friend cindy.

isnt he cute!!

and there you have it. pretty bored. pretty boring. i guess ill go to sleep now.

Happy Easter

Hello Social Life!

2007-04-04T00:28:00.000-05:00

Well i apparently have a girlfriend. well that's what she says anyway....I'm still not too sure. lol

so i guess this email from Ms. Sexy.

" Hi how have you been? would you like to meet for dinner this week?"

I'm thinking....OK this is crazy. nothing for 3 weeks and now she wants to have dinner. OK...that was Friday. Monday another email....shes going to be in my area, would i like to meet her then instead. so i say...."I'm not meeting you till you call me"

5pm....she calls.

we talked....i was calm. she was actually on her way.....so this is really gonna happen!! so i change get ready....not really too nervous...if you didn't know, i haven't met her yet. we've been talking forever and well....you know what happened 3 weeks ago....but i was cool. it wasn't too bad....until.....

i get to the restaurant, step out of my car.....shes walking over to me.....I'm waiting by my car....and she came right over and hugged me.

now to back up to the 30 seconds she was walking over to me....lol

i see this GORGEOUS woman.....beautiful......tall.....body to die for.....curvy, sexy as hell, i mean just oozing sexy......now Ive seen pictures but just shoulders up and of course her legs.....but that was it.....never the middle. and let me tell ya.....ooooo weeee!! back to the hug.....

so she hugs me, smells delicious....and my entire body just started shaking.......LOL

and then i was cool. i was excited, shocked, not so nervous anymore, couldn't take my eyes off her.....i was truly impressed.

we had great conversation, lots of flirting, i spoke my mind about the no show no call dinner, she apologized, felt bad. she had things going on....and yes should have called, she apologized. i told her never again. basically. but.....umm.....i don't know. we were very comfy with each ohter and words of going out again and how cute i am lol, and semi plans made......were spoken.

we leave the restaurant....i walk her to her car.....another wonderful hug....followed by some unexpected kisses from her.

i was done.

so i went home with a smile on my face....thinking...ok we'll see what happens.......

today...to my surprise....i got called, and text ed, and i didn't even have to make the first move. she had called me while was out shopping. made a joke of "now that i have this fancy girlfriend i need to get some fancy clothes...." ha ha ha....she laughed..thought that was funny.....and then i corrected myself by asking....well...."maybe i shouldn't say that.....do i have a fancy girlfriend" and she basically said......" i thought we clarified this already..." meaning yes i do.

so i think i have fancy girlfriend. lol

I'm going to keep her as Ms. Sexy for now. she knows about my blog, but i don't know if she wants her business put out there....so i just want to clear that up first with her.

so I'm not really sure how this is going to work....shes a busy girl.....and i require time. so we'll see how this works.

so that's about all that is going on right now. ill keep you posted on the girlfriend thing. lol its by far the strangest relationship?? Ive ever been in. seriously. we'll see what happens.

peace out!!

This moment brought to you by Smirnoff......

2007-03-24T21:14:00.000-05:00

so im feeling pretty good right now.

got a little liquor in me.

not so much that i can't tipe.

cuz i can type.

by far not drunk.

just feel reeeeeally good.

that warm fuzzy feeling that makes your head almost heavy. almost

eyes halfway open.

you know.....a feel good moment.

moments that make me wish i had a girlfriend......heh

so i got my flirt on today at the grocery store. it was funny. im working on my flirt. sorta feeling my self these days. just got my hair cut. total dyke i am. really really short...but its gonna look hot in a week. so for the next week ill be called Sir again....kinda funny.

its that short.

if i wasn't feeling so happy...i would try and take a pic....but i really dont' have the minutes on my phone to send it....maybe tomorrow. i need more minutes.

i have laundry to do.

so i was all excited, my girls called me to go hang out at the house but her husband said not tonight.

husbands....bleh i was all excited.

im bored....can you tell

all dressed up and no place to go.

Virtually Wednesday

2007-03-22T00:49:00.000-05:00

Ciara....my new love

i want to dance like her....

~insert hysterical laughter here~

i LOVE her video "Like a Boy"

totally rocks, totally hot!!

i heart her.

so not to much going on. im sorta dissapointed in my self. i have yet to go to the gym. another week gone by and im a total slacker. but i know that that is going to change cuz if you could just feel how crappy i feel right now.....you would be saying the same thing.

i have a trip coming up end of april and i don't want to feel like this. man.....this sucks. i can't go back to that. I WON'T GO BACK TO THAT. ive lost 18 lbs already....there is no reason to go backwards. i need to get focused again....and ya know....i think that is happening.

im virtually a little happier this week. lol

i am a DORK!!!

but an adorable one...and you love me for that or you wouldn't be here....lol

my goodness i had a jammed packed day today.

i took the day off cuz i had a ton of things to do and ive been such a slacker that i finally said ENOUGH ALREADY!!!

so....i was out the door at 9am...went to the bank to open accounts...check

in the rain

went to chicago to pick up my license plates for my car...check

in the rain

went to the old walmart to get a few items i needed for the next errand on my list....check

the sun finally came out

talk to a few people i haven't seen in years since i left that horrible place...check

went home to get packages ready for the post office...check

went to the post office....check

got lunch.....check

started to freakin pour, thunder and lightening oh my!!

came home to eat and rest for a bit. it was about 5pm by this time and i was a little beat, but i still had a few more things to do.

pouring down rain now

went to the other walmart to get items on my list....check

power to street lights are out

visited stephanie as i usually do on wednesdays and hope shes not to busy to do my hair.

she was very busy...as usual.

raining so hard you can hear it hitting the roof

but my night oddly enough was very pleasant as i was texting and talking with my "virtual"...heh

i never did get my haircut. im hoping on friday cuz my hair is touching my ears!!!

can't have that.....

perfect cool summer night, breezy.....

ok so i have the Food Network on and Rachel R is in Vancouver and im sooooo completely jealous cuz i want to go back so bad. its been soooo long and there are sooo many new things there now i just want to go go go!!! and take sherrell with me....lol but seriously....i so want to go back. i loved it there. i loved my life then too. of course it was easy when the company paid for everything. living the high life...yes we were........... (sigh) good times

so then stef and i went to dinner and now its 2am and im falling asleep. so on that note.....

have a good night!

Closing My Own Chapter

2007-03-15T21:39:00.000-05:00

ok so ive been mourning the loss of Ms. Sexy all week and im done now. since she won't give me closure, ill just make my own. i did nothing wrong. i invited her over for a romantic dinner which she did not show up for and did not call, has yet to call me therefore leaving me hanging and if you do not know this about me....I HATE TO BE LEFT HANGING!!! it drives me batty.

so going with today's technology..... closure has begun......

deleted phone numbers from home, work & cell phones (but i know it by heart..ugh)

deleted saved text messages

deleted caller ID

deleted saved voice mail messages (which was really fucking hard cuz she has the sweetest voice that makes me just stupid when i hear it)

deleted saved emails from work computer (haven't yet done the home one yet)

deleted pictures from work computer (still need to work on home computer)

removed her sexy legs from my myspace page (shame)

blogged my closure process....

emptied the recycle bin.....

it hits me most at work then it does at home cuz it was at work we talked the most. at home i just basically looked at her pictures wishing she would call but never did so it really doesn't bother me as much at home as it does at work. this would be so much easier if i could just get her out of mind but thats not happening just yet. its this whole "left hanging" thing that is annoying me to no end! ya know.....i just want to know why. thats all. then all will be good with the world. she didn't even have to freakin call....email. just let me know. but i guess that is too hard for her. oh fucking well.....

so im done. closure is done. im done talking about this im done thinking about this im done wondering about this im just fucking done. poke me with a fork....IM DONE!!!!!

i even called to go to voice mail. lost her phone my ass......like i was just born yesterday. ugh....

like i said before im not a mean person. at least i don' t think i am. i try not to be. im honest. thats really all it is. i have nothing bad to say about her. all in all i really was taken by her and she seemed genuinely really nice and there were/are a ton of things i loved about her and more that i didn't. but the good certainly did outweight the bad. we clicked. we vibed. really well. we both felt it. it was actaully kinda scary. but we did. but she lived in her own little world and was way to busy for me. her life got in the way. and thats really too bad. i know she has this link and im sure one day she'll read this and i do want her to know that i am glad to have known her for the short time i got to know her. cuz honestly.....she is partly the reason my life got jumpstarted into weight loss. partly.....the rest is just me wanting it really bad (cuz i can see myself in a few months being that cute little dyke that i am.....im gonna have ladies falling all over me!!! heh) but the thought of her really helped. a lot. she had me.....i was done. i was ready. maybe too ready...maybe to eager...i don't know. i guess ill never know.

so thats all i have to say.....oh and if you are reading this....can you please email me and tell what the hell happened!!!

LOL.....kidding..........................................no im not.....

anywho.......

so as a result of my mourning...i gained 1 lb. my bad. didn't go to the gym all week. that was a mistake. but needed to happen and now i begin again....fresh new start. i also ate brownies and ice cream this week. mmmm i did throw away most of it though. seriously. i had two gallons of ice cream (bogo free) i ate one over time and started on the other and was like...oh hell no!! and tossed it. i couldn't toss the brownies though. i ate one a day. lol

so i deserve that 1 lb gain. could have been worse. but ill be back to losing this week for sure.

i just found a full bottle of vodka on my coffee table that i thought was empty. hmmmmm one of the girls brought it over that night we went to the club. i thought we drank it...guess not!! lol

so other than that....everything is cool and kosher. work is great...i love it. still. i have great friends who i love and adore....you know who you are.....

looking forward to more weight loss and new beginnings......

she's out there somewhere..... :)

Still a Little Funky.....

2007-03-12T17:34:00.000-05:00

WHAT A FACE!!!

HA HA

Thank you friends for your comments but you have to know, i would never say anything bad about Ms. Sexy. and yeah im still a bit disappointed by all this but im still gonna talk to her if she ever calls. i did get an email today. not that it really said anything but that she lost her phone and didn't have my numbers and seems sad by that.......so i replied with my numbers and im still waiting for the call.

sometimes i wish i could just be one of those people to just no feel anything and say fuck it and move on...but im not. im just not a mean person. so ill wait for the call and see what she says...and take it from there.

in other news....

omgosh i couldn't sleep for shit last night. seems to be a recurring thing on sundays.....i was up till 3am. slept right through my alarm. sarah called me on my cell and asked me where i was i looked at the clock and it said 9am. im at work by 7am. can you say a little tardy??? so i jumped up, called my boss who really couldn't give a crap....lol....she thought i was in traffic....i told her "i wish!!" we laughed and i was at work by 10:30.

THANK YOU GOD FOR THIS BEAUTIFUL DAY!!!! it was in the 60's today...tomorrow almost 70!!! and then snow on thursday....lol back into the 30"s

such a tease

so now im home and im really tired and i really wish i could get this girl off my mind for a few minutes......or at least fucking CALL ME!!!

have a good one.....

FUNKY!!!

2007-03-12T00:30:00.000-05:00

so i had this nice romantic dinner, candles, spent hours....HOURS.....making the perfect cd, went out and bought special place settings, got her favorite fucking flowers...sunflower, even made brownies for her to take home to her kids!!! along with her favorite ice cream......

no call

no show

nothing.

needless to say im a bit pissed off. well i was. that was yesterday...today...yeah im still pissed off, but i really don't care anymore.

its her loss.

what makes me mad most of all is that i could have done something like go to bingo or SOMETHING!!....instead of sitting around waiting for her ass to show up.

HOWEVER.....i made a great dinner. it was really good and i drank the wine...that was even better and i talk to maggie who was going on a date WITH A GIRL!!! lol and watched tv.

today i went back and returned everything i bought except the candles and food and went to chicago to see sarah. i spent this evening talking to sherrell (my one who got away) which is always a feel good for me......

and thats that.

so im sorta through with Ms. Sexy. this isn't cute anymore. i guess we'll see what happens if she ever does decided to make phone call....cuz im surely not calling her. im a catch and if she can't see that well then.....thats really too bad. there are plenty of other women out there who would love my company.

so that was my weekend.....how was yours??

Ain't no stopping me now!!

2007-03-09T04:02:00.000-06:00

this would be my fish. can you see him just chilling on the side of the volcano thing in my tank. sucker is huge. its my pycastamyst

(OK its 4am people...too lazy to Google!)

so i lost another 4 lbs!!

that would be a total of 18 lbs!!

YEAH BABY!!!

I'd put the song up but again....4am....

i still might though cuz

I FUCKING ROCK!!!

heh

OK....so not to much going on. there are travel plans in the works for me to visit my mom in May and i can't wait! i might be taking a trip in April as well...not sure about that yet.....i think I'm going to be doing some traveling this year....which is what i keep saying every year, but i think this year its going to happen. definitely want to go back to Albuquerque to see my friend.....HI MAGGIE!!

ugh...my cat has a hairball.....lovely

work is good, Sarah is good, Ms. Sexy will be coming over on Saturday for dinner that I'm making.....which is oh so good.....I'm really looking forward to it. I'm making lasagna.

if you go to my My Space page......those are her legs in the background...heh

and yes i got permission

so as i mentioned...its 4am. I've been in bed since 9pm and now I'm up...so i think i will just shower and go to work.

i am sooo looking forward to warm weather

Hello World

2007-02-25T03:11:00.000-06:00

Love white tigers.

I took this pic when we went to the zoo last year. i just found it again. i've been cleanning out my files and pics on the computer. its amazing how much crap ive accumilated on here.

and then i look around my house......hmmmm, interesting.

so i went out last night. go me...get that social!! woot woot!!

so yeah, a friend from walmart celebrated her 30th and she had a house party. i was kinda excited about it, kinda not. but i didn't want to NOT go cuz most of last year i pretty much blew them off and never came through on plans of going out and i didn't want to do that again. i cry and cry cuz i have no friends and don't do anything...well...they are there....and i have invites......but that was then and now things are different. i have a different outlook on life and don't mind going out.

so it was nice. a handful of people there kids who stayed upstairs (god i remember those days...lol) i had a few drinks....vodka/cranberry about......um.....4 i think......a few beers......food.....dancing......well they danced...i watched and enjoyed watching them....heh

im such a perv. i watched this one girl "walk it out" most of the night......heh

(shut up jeannine)

alcohol + Jeannine= all night horny texting Ms. Sexy.....LOL

so sorry babe.....lol

yeah....

the kids would come down every once in a while to dance. they were so cute....certain songs would come on and they would come running doing whatever dance they did in the video and put on a show. if you ever seen the move "stomp the yard"....its kinda like that. "Crunk" is what i think its called. anyway....it was cool....and this 5 year old was just amazing the way he was dancing. i tried to get some pics but it was too dark. anyway...we all had a good time and i got to see some people i haven't seen in a long time.

yeah...i got people's too! lol (private joke)

it started snowing really bad around 10pm....we did a midnight run for more liquor and just about everyone was gone by 1am...except me and J and her husband who were still enjoying...said drinks. we all pretty much passed out and i woke up at 5am feeling not so great, had to dig out my car and went home.

i can tell how much my eating habits have changed. she had chicken wings (YUM!!!) pizza and jumbaliya (YUM!!!!) and a veggie platter.

so i pretty much had some of everything...more chicken wings (with hot sauce...yum!) than anything....and came home with food cuz there was so much and she put a plate together for me......which thankfully is all gone now.....but oh my goodness i am so bloated from all the salt and stuff......i feel yucky.

so tomorrow im going to just drink lots of water and detox...lol

back to the Y weather permitting. the storm is pretty bad. we had a lot of snow and now its raining and sleeting. it was weird to see raindrops. been so long...lol.

here i am, another night of no sleep....4am. i hate weekends sometimes. i would rather go to work then sit at home doing nothing. i have plans next weekend too on friday night which should be fun.

well i guess i should try and sleep.

Lookin Good, Feelin Great!!!

2007-02-22T22:34:00.000-06:00

Another 4.8 GONE!! 13 total

not the greatest picture. something going on with my lip there...so not normal...but oh well. i was told i don't smile so there you go....lol

i took this pic about 3 days ago. yesterday i got a haircut. had so much fun with stef. i haven't seen her in a long time and she was working by herself so i stayed with her at the shop and then went for dinner. we had a really good time. i just love her to death.

i am surrounded by beautiful people

stephanie...my hairdresser and really good friend

i can't even begin to tell you how great i feel. my whole outlook on things have changed....i can't remember the last time i did drive thru or a fast food place. when i go out i....get this....eat sensible!!!! food days at work go un-noticed. my love for salads is BACK!!! excersise has made an incredible difference in my life...even if it is for just a little bit.

i was shooting for 3 to 5 and got 4. that is awsome i can feel it too.

so there are things going on....bad things. well not really horrible...but annoying things.....that kinda put a damper on your day type of stuff that i really don't care to discuss.....but wanted to tell you that even though they are stressful things....im so not stressed. lol

im in such a great place in my life right now....im riding high and i don't ever want to come down. im so motivated to this to the point of it not even being a thought. it just happens.

this was taken 3 days ago. my official "before" pic

i'll take one every month or so.......so some comparisons.

Ms. Sexy and I.......still there :o)

ciao bella!!

A Quicky

2007-02-22T00:28:00.000-06:00

This is going to be real quick cuz its very late and im very tired but i needed to get this entry out to you all before i forget again. i was reminded by my mother that in the last few weeks ive been saying "nothing really exciting going on" and apparently i was wrong. and shes was right. so some things i forgot to mention.....1. my sister had a baby and im an aunt again!! woo hoooo!!! and 2. it was my brothers birthday on Feb 10th and i forgot to mention it. HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAYMOND!!! even though im pretty sure he don't read this.....its there. thanks mom :o)

weight in tomorrow and im expecting to have a 3-5 lb loss...but ill take whatever loss there is and be happy about it.....and finally....

you may or may not know but i really don't do forwards. they are way to long and 99.9% of them i never even open just delete. so if you send me a forward that I MUST SEND TO 200 PEOPLE OR THE WORLD WILL END.......it was nice knowing you. with that said...i do read some that come from certain people cuz they usually don't send them and when they do they are pretty good....like if I were to send one....you should probalby read it cuz its hysterical....

and thanks to my very dear friend MARY who i adore....sent me this forward today AT WORK and had me in tears i wanted to laugh out loud so bad but couldn't. so im going to share it with you dear readers and if you happen to be Italian....all the better!!!

so on that note, i hope you have a wonderful day and remember to tell someone you love them today. it will make you feel good :o) enjoy!

ill have you know that every single one of these things are TRUE!!!!! and ive lived to tell it! lol

42 Things in the Life of an Italian Child

01. You have at least one relative who wore a black dress every day for an entire year after a funeral.

02. You spent your entire childhood thinking what you ate for lunch was pronounced "sangwich."

03. Your family dog understood Italian.

04. Every Sunday afternoon of your childhood was spent visiting your grandparents and extended family.

05. You've experienced the phenomena of 150 people fitting into 50 square feet of yard during a family cookout.

06. You were surprised to discover the FDA recommends you eat three meals a day, not seven.

07. You thought killing the pig each year and having salami, capacollo, pancetta and prosciutto hanging out to dry from your shed ceiling was absolutely normal.

08. You ate pasta for dinner at least three times a week, and every Sunday, and laughed at the commercial for Wednesday is Prince Spaghetti day.

09. You grew up thinking no fruit or vegetable had a fixed price and that the price of everything was negotiable through haggling.

10. You were as tall as your grandmother by the age of seven.

11. You thought everyone's last name ended in a vowel.

12. You thought nylons were supposed to be worn rolled to the ankles.

13. Your mom's main hobby is cleaning.

14. You were surprised to find out that wine was actually sold in stores.

15. You thought that everyone made their own gravey

16. You never ate meat on Christmas Eve or any Friday for that matter.

17. You ate your salad after the main course.

18. You thought Catholic was the only religion in the world.

19. Your were beaten at least once with a wooden spoon or broom.

20. You thought every meal had to be eaten with a hunk of bread in your hand.

21. You can understand Italian but you can't speak it.

22. You have at least one relative who came over on the boat.

23. All of your uncles fought in a World War.

24. You have at least six male relatives named Tony, Frank, Joe,Vinny or Louie.

25. You have relatives who aren't really your relatives.

26. You have relatives you don't speak to.

27. You drank wine before you were a teenager.

28. You relate on some level to the Godfather and the Sopranos.

29. You grew up in a house with a yard that didn't have one patch of dirt that didn't have a flower or a vegetable growing out of it.

30. Your grandparent's furniture was as comfortable as sitting on plastic. Wait!!!! You were sitting on plastic.

31. You thought that talking loud was normal.

32. You thought sugared almonds and the Tarantella were common at all weddings.

33. You thought everyone got pinched on the cheeks and money stuffed in their pockets by their relatives.

34. Your mother is overly protective of the males in the family no matter what their age.

35. There was a crucifix in every room of the house.

36. Wakes would be held in someone's living room.

37. You couldn't date a boy without getting approval from your father.

38. You called pasta "macaroni".

39. You dreaded taking out your lunch at school.

40. Going out for a cup of coffee usually meant going out for a cup of coffee over Minnie Zingarelli’s house.

41. Every condition, ailment, misfortune, memory loss and accident was attributed to the fact that you didn't eat something.

42. Those of you who get this...KNOW who to pass it on to!

TGIF!!

2007-02-16T22:14:00.000-06:00

Weight loss is such a funny thing. I went to my meeting last night feeling really good and was very successful. Finally I actually felt like I lost weight and I did. 3 lbs!! GO ME!! I say. This is finally happening…its finally working…I'm focused and excited and loving life right now.

So I talk to sarah…..

Sarah: so how did you do?

Me: 3 lbs!! I say all happy and shit….

Sarah: oh…..good. in her “is that all???” kinda tone….

Then later on I talked to my mom…..similar conversation…..

Then Maggie!! THE SAME FREAKIN THING!!

I realized that last week was a major loss…..but OMG!!….3 lbs ROCKS!!! I'm not on this losing marathon or anything like that…9 lbs is not going to happen every week…I'm proud of those 3 lbs. I would be proud if it was 1 lb!! I'm finally losing weight!!! And they were all like….”oh……well good” all nonchalant…….HELLO!!!!

Ok….i had to get that out cuz it was bugging me.

So yeah….ok…so your all not confused when I tell you that I lost 8 lbs all together…..my first week I gained 3 lbs…..then lost 9 and now 3. so technically my loss is at 8.2 I think Is the number…..GO FUCKING ME!!!!

I have to say I'm really focused. At times it’s not even a thought it just happens. I'm eating so much less and so much better foods. I don’t even give McDonalds a second thought in the mornings which is awesome!!! For me. I typically fight with myself and lose but now I forget I'm even passing it. and now that I'm going to the Y its just made such a major difference. I'm eating so much better. On valentines at dinner I only ate half my meal and gave the rest to Sarah for lunch at work. Left it in my car so I wouldn’t be tempted…and really I don’t think I would have been…..i have food at home I could have eaten but didn’t cuz its just not my main focus anymore. That’s really what it most likely is. I'm distracted. Big time. Which is a good thing. Its nice to have something other than when is my next meal to think about…..

and such a lovely thought she is…..heh

So my computer is up and running!!! YEAH!!! I actually feel whole and human again. How sad is that!! But really….its great to have it back. Only now I have a hundred updates and software to install……fun fun

OMG DID YOU WATCH GRAYS LAST NIGHT!!!! I hate that show for ending and making me wait 7 WHOLE DAYS!!! To come back on. Its really not cool at all.

I'm at work now. There is a problem with the server so I have nothing to do…..but wait. So I thought I would bang out this awesome entry to you folks cuz you know you love me…..hee!
You’re welcome.

Not too many plans for the weekend.

Clean, gym, bingo, sleep, play poker online with my friends….god I miss that!!

well i finally left work around 630 this evening. i came home and talked to Ms. Sexy all night.

This my friends.....is a good thing :)

So Much for Love Day.....

2007-02-15T16:40:00.000-06:00

yeah so vd didn't go as planned but it was a pretty good day all in all.

it started at 6am when i was sitting in my car FOR AN HOUR trying to get out of my driveway and just gave up. called in. the snow was pouring down, it was a mess. car didnt' want to go anywhere...so i decided to take a snow day.

the roomie was having car trouble so we decided to check out the dealerships and look at some vehicles. i have to say we had a great experience. i was really impressed. so she test drove the one she was interested in and it was nice. had some lunch and went home to find MY COMPUTER!!! (thank you so much JAK you are truly the best and i love you to death!!!!) so i was a happy camper....note: im at the library......talked about the car and what to do and a short time later was back at the dealership and roomie has a new car!! sweet :)

Ms. Sexy got sick so our dinner plans got cancelled. i was truly bummed. I was really looking forward to meeting her. im sure we'll get together soon. but for now....shes can't even talk she sqeaks.....lol...very cute.

so i called my friend cindy cuz i knew she wasn't seeing her girlfriend and we went to dinner. it was a nice night, good food and the day wasn't a total loss.

of course i got home and immediatley went to installing the computer. im having trouble with the dsl so i can't get on the internet as of yet but hopefully tonight after grays anatomy ill get that fixed and be up and running again.

so im going through this music phase and this song that on here now really gets me going. i totally LOVE LOVE LOVE this song. its one of my favorite gospel songs. so i hope you enjoy it. GET UP AND DANCE!!! LOL omg...i just remember...i found a new station too. its called The Love station and they play dance, disco and motown. it totally rocks!!! im obsessed with music!!!

ok...well i need to run. weigh in tonight.....hopefully that will be a great outcome. it should be.....

ill let you'all know!!

see ya

Distractions........

2007-02-10T15:46:00.000-06:00

wow...ok im like totally distracted these days...lol in a good way though. more on that later.....

what a week!! ANS!! i can't even believe it. no more crazy anna. what are the tabloids going to write about now. shes was always good for a spread. heh seriously though...she will be missed by me. i kinda liked her. i thought she was crazy and wild and sexy and just nuts!! but she was funny as hell! i do feel sooooo completely bad for her daughter though. what a life that kid is going to have. poor thing.....

so my computer is still dead. i have a friend who is oh so generously sending me a computer that was being thrown away by her company. its a dell about 4 years old....works fine. so im waiting on that. hopefully by next week ill have that and be up and running again.

can you guess where im at today?? yeah....the library where i have 51 minutes to get this out. so much to tell....not really. good thing i type fast. oh so quiet here.....

lol...this man sitting across from me just asked me if i knew how to get the computer working. apparently his time ran out and the computer shut down. so i was sorta confused for a sec...and took the easy way out...."sorry first time here"......which is not completely false. they revamped there systems and access so i wasn't sure what was going on......well so he walked away and i said....."hit the power button"...he looked at me like i was speaking chinese......"on the hardrive"...again that look....."the box on the side of the monitor...there's a power button....push it"...he looked, found the button and TA DA!! we have lift off ladies and gentleman......he then looked at me and realized that i actaully do speak english and felt pretty stupid. he was working on his resume......lord.

ok so went to weight watchers on thursday...lost 9 lbs :)

went to the Y today...20 min on the treadmill and it was OK. i didn't die, my legs didn't fall out from under me..the world was still standing. it wasn't too bad. the place was not really crowded, they had TV's all over. i do however desperately need an MP3 player (donations accepted...LOL j/k) cuz i really do need to have music. the tv's were cool and im happy they were there and it was a good show that i can get lost in ....but i seriously need the music. ive been jamming at work too...love my job!!. so yeah....20 on the tread, i tried some other machines that just weren't working for me so i went back to the treadmil for another 10 min and all was good in my world. i felt great. a sence of accomplishment. were going again tomorrow. and monday and tuesday and....oh...not wednesday...heh....i got a date :) but thursday and friday and so on and so forth. im doing this.

so yeah....i have date on valentines day. hmmm.....so my major distraction....her name is hmmm...im gonna call her Ms. Sexy. im not going to get into to many details as i have no idea where this is going, but for right now....i have a date. heh i can tell you that she is VERY distracting :)

the car is still going strong. i had a flat the other morning....but all was good. roadside came and saved the day. this weather sucks!! i hate it. hello spring any day now.....

man i haven't been the to library in a long time. i don't know how people do this. 41 minutes and counting.....i better save this....lol

well i need to get home and get some things done. i know there is more i wanted to say but my mind is just blank now. so damn distracted........

be back soon!!
love ya'll, jeannine

FYI

2007-01-31T14:50:00.000-06:00

computer crashed and died
ill update at work when i get a chance...which will most likely be never....lol
i did join the Y!! go me....

i hope to be up and running soon. major power outage....not good.

im completely lost!!!! lol

i'll keep you posted from work...but it will be no time till they block this site if i keep using it....

damn security.....

ciao for now!!

Friday Night

2007-01-27T00:24:00.000-06:00

oddly enough i don't know this person but i do know SOMEONE with a

SERIOUSLY SIMILAR OUTFIT!! HA HA HA HA

ooo...baby...im cracking my ass up here.....lmao

ok....sorry. hello!! how are ya'll doin?? I'm doing wonderful. not to much going on here as usual.....the weekend is going to be a quiet one. not even going to bingo cuz im BROKE!!

funny what happens when you pay your bills on time. ugh.

actaully im not completely broke..but i don't have the money to spend on gambling this week. therefore i forfiet my one thing that i do.....pitty me.

well i wasn't going to say anything but fuck it...its my blog. i can say whatever i want and who cares....but i ONCE AGAIN....joined weight watchers. and ONCE AGAIN...im going to give it my all and ONCE AGAIN....im going to start excersising.....and ONCE AGAIN....im going to lose this damn weight. i am not OFFICALLY at my heaviest weight that ive ever been in life....and for those who have been with me from the beginning (thank you i love you) know that i am 10 lbs heavier than my last "heaviest" weight. well done i say...go me.

don't you want to date me....LOL

but yeah....im actually pretty serious about this to the point where im joining the Y this week coming up so that i can get in the excersise i need and ill be going with a friend for a while (till she moves away from me) and i know that there are people reading this (mom) that are in panic mode right now....but seriously folks...i know what im doing. i don't want to die...this is why im doing this cuz honestly im a little scared cuz i know there are things going on within me that im not ready to face.....and so...before i face them...i want to lose this weight. and my other motivation is sex. i want to have sex. im 40, im horny, i need sex. simple as that.

tmi i know...my blog...your problem....LOL

i love you all i really do

seriously

OMG DID YOU SEE GRAYS ANATOMY LAST NIGHT!!!!!!!!

OH!! Let me tell you about my thursday night.....

i look forward to thursday. its GA night. and as you know im having this love affair with this show. its the only show i look forward too and really all i watch. tv is mostly on for noise....but ive now discovered music again....good music. sweet sweet music...anyway.....

so i go my meeting...blah blah blah....as i get closer to home im noticing its quite dark. hmmm....power outage....hmmm...pick up the cell and call the roomie....."hey...do we have power??" she says no....tells me there was a water main break on the main road and dumbass clipped a wire.....but as im talking to her and driving down the road im noticing lights and was like...hmmm....well they have lights....roomie says were on a different grid from those houses like 2 blocks away.....i pulled into the alley and am now in the driveway looking at the dark house talking to the roomie who tells me the power has been out since around 5:30pm (its about 7pm now) when it dawned on me........

GASP!!!!!

NOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!

Grays Anatomy is on at 8.

so now im upset. very upset......the roomie is a fan too and understands my dismay. she was pretty close to tears too.....we were both not happy at all.

so i walk into the house....candles lit...flashlights out....sitting on the couch in our coats cuz its starting to get cold.....catching up, talked about work....watching the cars go by......and waiting.....730.....still dark. they have 30 min. i have faith. so check the house...sump pumps...talk some more....make some calls.....745....still dark. still fucking DARK!!!!!

i was so not happy. cuz this was supposed to be an awsome episode...things were happening!!! ive been waiting all week then all day for this moment. 8pm....STILL FUCKING DARK!!!

phone rings....its maria. calling during a commercial to talk about the show...that WERE NOT WATCHING!!! "so what do you think is wrong with the girl??" she says......

well jee...i don't know...were in the fucking dark!!!!! so now ever commercial maria calls to torment us......LOL gotta love her. if we thought about it we would have went to her house to watch it...but that thought never entered out mind.

8:20.....lights flicker....we both jump up, scrambling like idiots, roomie checking the sump pumps and im trying to find the remote and finally get the tv on, roomies back and all is good with the world. funny thing....we were still sitting in the dark....heh

maria got us caught up on the first 20 min which of course i watched again today online now i can't wait till next week!

so that was my exciting night.

so im still not in love with my car. i like her shes cool....gets me from A to B...but shes not good in snow. i fight to get out of my driveway every freaking day. no traction what so ever. its annoying. i hope she does better in the summer. im not complaining....im happy to have good reliable ride..believe you me.....

man i have a lot of shit to do.

ick......

"someone"= my best friend Maggie....lmao!!!

she hates me so much right now......ha ha ha ha ha

GO BEARS!

2007-01-21T18:22:00.000-06:00

I know for a fact i just impressed some people.....lol

the game was pretty good. i actaully watched it.

i wish i had some ice cream.

GO BEARS BABY!! SUPERBOWL HERE WE COME!!

The Oldies

2007-01-21T01:28:00.000-06:00

I'm kinda looking into this for my first tattoo. only instead of the women symbols in the middle i would want the yin yang symbol in there. but i thought that was pretty cool. A friend of mine and i were talking about getting tat's.....and im thinking this one is it.

so i have the TV Guide channel on cuz its 2am and there is nothing but infomercials on TV....and they are advertising the Classic Soft Rock cd's and i sooo want this collection. im sitting here singing my ass off TO EVERY FREAKING SONG!!! i wish they would play the whole song.

thats when i realized that I AM OLD!!!! cuz i was jamming baby. air supply, reo speedwagon, bonnie tyler...omg...and that guy who sings...I'm all outta love, I'm so lost with-OUT you...... you know you love it! i used to cry and cry and cry some more when ever i heard that song. oy. back in the day when i was living at home...i used to hang out in garage and work on some stuff i learned in shop class and i would play air supply and reo and that song over and over and if so i can really date myself...i do believe it was on 8-track.

So yesterday was a great day for mail. the plates for my car came in so i can take off that ugly temp plate i have on my car AND my rainbow stripe came in as well so now i can gay up the car. im very excited. though i had a problem with it. i didn't want to get the sticker so i got a cling....for the window. but its cold and it won't stay on the window. so im not sure what im going to do. im going to see if it will work during the day when the windows are not as cold....

i hope it works.

really not to much going on. work is great. im really liking the work and the people its really great. its constantly busy so im never bored. the day flies by....so im happy there.

again...not to much going on.

I'm Golden Baby!!

2007-01-08T20:26:00.000-06:00

is this not the craziest thing you ever seen in your life!!!!

I was talking to a really good friend last weekend and one of the things we were talking about was blogging. she was fasinated with my blog and of course....wanted her own.

now let me explain dear readers....this woman maybe checks her mail one a week if not once a month....so im not sure if that will ever happen but one of the things she said to me was...."and i want music on my blog!!" all happy and cheery like she usually is....and i was like...."hmmm, well i never heard of such a thing....." and she was a non believer and said that that was impossible so i said i would research this.

well today.....cuz you know i forgot all about it right....well if you happen to notice up top there it says "next blog"....that is a cool feature where it will randomly pick out a blog like as if its next in line....well it just so happened that this next blog that i was on HAD MUSIC!! so of course i scoped it out and.....

WALA!! I HAVE MUSIC ON MY BLOG!!

i think this is very cool. ill be sure to change it as the mood strikes....it will be a good way to see what kind of mood im in when i actually do update. ill try and change the song each time......i hope you like the selections....i am a lover of all kinds of music....except country...not a big fan....but who knows what ill find..lol

im just all too excited abou this!!

work is still wonderful. i love it! they are giving me a new desk on thursday since there is another underwriter coming in....and they need to keep them together...so im being moved AGAIN.....sheesh....but its cool. i don't mind.

ugh...i need a calander.....

car is still running!! yeah!!!...lol

oh it seems that some of you are having trouble with the comments....hmm..im wondering how many im missing out on cuz of this.....ill look into it...and thanks for letting me know!! I checked out your myspace btw....very cool!! you know who you are :)

ciao for now!

jeannine

Welcome 2007!!

2007-01-01T02:31:00.000-06:00

So ive been thinking about this entry and what i wanted to do or say, and i got this idea so i hope you enjoy this picture entry......

welcome to my life!!

(click on the pic's to see them larger)

it all began in the wee hours of June 7th, 1966

and yes the cheeks were pinched many a time!! i was a big baby...10, 11 oz. born a month late, i was all too happy where i was....lol

3 and 6 monthsjust chillin....

1 years old hammin it up for the camera...lol what a babe!!!

this one is hard to see but im 2 years old here. the black and white is me and my sister in our Easter get up.....fun times

i love this one. i think im around 3 yrs....its just the cutest!!

these pics crack me up. its a birthday party im going to guess 3 or 4. im sitting next to the girl in the yellow dress on the end. ive got the flower dress on. check out the caddy in the garden way back there and the adults in the background....is that a lively bunch or what!!!! and yes thats daddy in the yellow shirt with the camera hanging around his neck. good times!!!

LMAO!!!

i just couldn't leave out the pink couch in plastic..... your welcome....

me and santa....two different years. not really sure how old i was

me and mom 1971. i was 5 shes 27
two hot babes

Kindergarden days.....

rags to riches!
Halloween for a while i was a bum every year. it as an easy outfit to put together. that carrot in front of me is my sister....lol the other pic im guess about 15 - 16
check out those legs baby!!

1981 High School grad pic. i believe this was my first perm..........lovely
calling all hair straighteners!!!! yikes!

1982 school pic. 16

perm is GONE!!

1984 HS Grad pic. the girly days

and the perm is back......why jeannine....why????

1986 20 yrs old. I'm the babe in blue baby!!! thats my sister in pink...hi diane!!!

1987 21st birthday

going dancin with my best friend

30 yrs old at my heaviest weight....

36 yrs old.....after losing about 70 lbs

2006 40 years old

GIRLY DAYS GONE!!!

LOL

Well i hope you enjoyed my life in pictures....i had fun doing it. brought back some really fond memories. this whole weekend was really about thinking back at my life and where its going. i know that 2007 is going to be good. its already starting out that way. i feel good this holiday. happy. motivated. im excited to see the journey ahead. the new people im going to meet.....the new me im going to love again. the new journey im going on.

Happy New Year!

Meet Zippy!!

2006-12-31T12:15:00.000-06:00

so there she is....my new car. 2005 Ford Focus. low mileage, clean, nice, and her name came to me as we were crusin down the tollway doing....um.....lets just say NOT 55......lol....and we were zippin in and out of traffic so nicely and smoothly.....and it just came to me......Zippy!

so yeah...me and the Zipper are going to be doing just fine. im not in love with her....but i like her a lot. and to quote the dealer....

"you don't have to love her, you just have to date her....for about a year or so...make your payments on time, come back and we'll put you in something you love...."

so im dating now.

there is one thing that i absolutley HATE about this car.....i feel like im in prehistoric, back to rotary phone days......NO POWER WINDOWS. omg...im in hell.......every time i go through a toll booth....HELL!!!! i am sooo getting the IPASS asap!! crank crank crank.....totally sucks!! but...i have heat, i have AC (woo hooo) i have everything i need. its awesome!!

so yeah...i have a new car and im very happy. ive never owned such a young car before. all my cars were at least 10 years old. of course ive never had a car payment either.....but they are pretty low too and im happy about that as well.

so here it is New Years Eve. another 3 day weekend, alone, nothing to do. however im not as bummed out as i was last weekend. i feel really good actaully. ive been talking to a wonderful woman (Hi Sherrell!!!) that always lifts me up mentally, just all around goodness, and its always a feel good to talk to her.....so that has been nice.

Sherrell if i haven't mentioned before was my first girlfriend, my first love. we were together for 9 years and its been about that long since ive seen her....but thats going to change cuz me and Zip are going to take some road trips......and that will be one of my stops...to see her again. so a big shout out my girl!!! i know your loving this...LOL

so do you have big plans for the NYE? ive got things to do around here. i want to finish up what i started last weekend. i still have that one room to take care of. im going to start the NY off clean and focused......i have big plans.

so be safe out there.....don't drink and drive.....and have a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! thanks for sticking around one more year......i know that 2007 will be a good one. its already starting out that way :)

take care my friends.....love and hugs to you all!!!

Jeannine

a Meme.....

2006-12-27T17:00:00.000-06:00

1. A is for age: 40

2. B is for beer of choice: hmm....MGD or Corona with a lime

3. C is for career right now: Insurance

4. D is for your dog's name? well i don't have a dog....but my kitty's name is Sofie

5. E is for essential item you use everyday: hair gel

6. F is for favorite TV show at the moment: Gray's Anatomy

7. G is for favorite game: BINGO!! and poker

8. H is for Home town: Born in Brookly NY, currently reside in IL

9. I is for instruments you play: nada

10. J is for favorite juice: Orange

11. K is for whose butt you’d like to kick: the person who cancelled BINGO tonight!! pisses me off.....
12. L is for last place you ate: my desk at work

13. M is for marriage: not happening

14. N is for your full name: Jeannine A. thats all your gettin.....

15. O is for overnight hospital stays: ive had a couple. the last one i broke my ankle in 89....

16. P is for people you were with today: co-workers and the rent a car people

17. Q is for quote:“don't overload your plate, unless you plan to share” confusious say......

18. R is for Biggest Regret: i have many.....

19. S is for status: Single......as usual

20. T is for time you woke up today: 5:30am everyday

21. U is for underwear you have on now: Just My Size sport-cut blue

22. V is for vegetable you love: I love all veggies

23. W is for worst habit: i tend to sleep a lot

24. X is for x-rays you’ve had: ankle

25. Y is for yummy food you ate today: i had a bagel for breakfast and a sandwhich with a salad for lunch

26. Z is for zodiac sign: Gemini

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well im going to the dealership tomorrow....wish me luck!!
have a great day!!

Monday, Monday....

2006-12-26T03:24:00.000-06:00

oh its not Monday is it....its Tuesday!! i wonder if ill get it right this week. wednesday will be tuesday, thursday will be wednesday and it'll be friday again before i know it.....lovely.

so my 3 day weekend was filled will cleanning. i got some shit done ive been meaning to do 4 eva! and im still not done instead of 3 rooms im down to 1. and that will be next weeekends 3 days of nothingness for me to do.

this is sooo damn pathetic. its 3:30 am and i can sleep cuz im too excited for it to be 5am so i can go to work. can you believe this. i can't sleep cuz i want to go to work. and honestly if i had gotten paid today like i usually do but didn't cuz banks were closed yesterday...i would be showering right now so that i can leave in an hour, take myself out for breakfast until it was time to go to work. read a paper.

OMG..THE COOLEST THING HAPPENED YESTERDAY MORNING WHEN I WAS WATCHING THE NEWS!!!! THEY WERE TALKING TO THE TROOPS AND IT HAPPENED TO BE THE SAME TROOPS MY BROTHER IS IN AND WHEN THEY PANNED THE GUYS I SAW MY BROTHER!!!!

i was so excited. i called my mom. it was 4am. she didn't mind. lol

so i was supposed to go check out this car....

today but it looks like im going to have to reschedule my appt for tomorrow. please cross your fingers and your toes and pray to whatever God you pray too that these people work with me and let me have this baby...cuz i really like it and i want it! supposidly they work with ppl like me and so im hoping they keep there word. wish me luck!! AINT IT THE CUTEST!! Ahem....yeah.....um....its looks cool. lol

its a 2006 Buick Rendevous. and the price is right. low mileage. If you know anything about cars and have any advise about this one...please feel free to use the comments. i know nothing about cars.....but i do know that i want a compact SUV. nothing real big.....so please if you have any suggestions.....

im trying to stay positive.

3:40am. my alarm will go off at 530. i guess i should see about getting a little bit of sleep. im just ready to go to work. how sad is that......

have a great day!

Happy Holiday!

2006-12-24T19:27:00.000-06:00

I got a card from my brother via email yesterday. i miss him. its weird. i haven't seen him in person for many years now. we hardly talk on the phone, but yet were close. we have the strangest brother/sister relationship which drives my mother crazy. she hates it that we don't talk on a regular basis. we don't need too. and when we do talk its very short but sweet converstaion. and were ok with that. so...there my little brother sporting the big guns.

so its been a little while since ive posted. one of my goals for next year is to go back to journaling more often even if i don't have anything to say. ive made a few goals....not resolutions...but goals of things i want to accomplish in 2007.

1. restore my credit (which im actually working on now) and get out of debt.
2. work on the never ending battle of losing weight. only this time take it more seriously.
3. make some new friends....and have fun.

thats about it. so life has been a major bummer. im not digging the holidays and very ba humbug and thats just the way it is. im very depressed and lonely really. (see #3)

my car died. ive been without a car for about 3 weeks now. the first week i stayed with sarah and couldn't take it anymore so the second week i paid a friend to drive me back and forth and last week i rented a car. i was going to just keep renting but thats not working out for me either.

tuesday im going to a dealership near sarah and i might just stay with her this week coming up if that deal doesn't go through....but im hoping and praying it does even if i do have to pay and arm and a leg to get it....i have bad credit, i need a car.....but these people supposidly work with "bad credit no credit, no problem" like me...so hopefully they mean what they say and ill have a car by tuesday.

i got a new assignment at work which completely rocks my world. i totally love it. its something i know ill be at forever. i hope anyway. the best part is that im constantly busy so no time to slack off....lol and the days just fly by.

i feel really bad that i have nothing for anybody for xmas. im just broke!! i keep saying xmas is in january....lol

im trying to get out of this slumpy funk im in. a lot has to do with my car, being broke, im so lonely for companionship.....ive just completely given up on myself.....

one good thing....i am trying. i had 3 days this weekend. i told myself im going to get things done around here and ive been doing it. mostly done too. i have one room i need to battle...sarahs old room. she still has stuff here and i need to move some stuff around.....ive got bags of garbage piling up ready to go out. ive been cleanning. lol just getting rid of everything. that will be my goal for tomrrow. that and mopping the floors.

if this was 20 years ago, i'd be sitting on my aunts couch opening presents with my family.

Merry Christmas.

Happy Turkey Day!

2006-11-25T00:10:00.000-06:00

Ok so yeah im a little late....but i hope you all had a great day.

I've been spending some time at sarah's apartment because her brakes went out on her car and until she gets them fixed....im basically living there. why you ask....well....she needs to get to work...so since we work together....it was the only logical answer. its been cool. actaully worked out for the better. it was good that i was there.

so we had our little turkey day which turned out really really well. i was given a turkey at bingo so we had that....she made a huge pot of greens that came out really good. the turkey came out perfect....we had sweet potatoes, mac and cheese, cornbread stuffing, and cornbread and she made a banana pudding thing with nilla waffers...which was good...and i got a sweet potatoe pie and we had the ice cream. took us about 6 hours to make.....15 min to eat...lol it was really good though. and the day was really nice too...windows open nice warm breezes.....perfect day.

im home now. for the night anyway. i have a four day weekend. sarah wanted to see her friends and i need to come home to take care of some things....im getting all caught up on my shows that ive been missing. I flipped out when i forgot to watch Grays Anatomy on thursday. completely forgot. its a good thing ABC has full episodes of all the showes online or i would have been screwed!!! it was sooo good. im also getting caught up on Lost. that show is losing me.....

its going to be nice to sleep in my own bed tonight. sarah has an airbed which is great and comfy and all...but a bitch to get out of.

ok well nothing else really is going on. just living life one day at a time....pretty boring if you ask me. i wish i had a life....something to do other than go to work and come home. bingo is my only fun....how sad is that. ah well.....at least i have something right.....LOL man if i had a better car i would sooo driving it somewhere right about now.

enjoy the weekend

Random Thoughts.....

2006-11-09T00:11:00.000-06:00

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is this right on or what!!!! like they say you can take the girl outta NY but you can't take NY outta the girl! so true so true....

so yeah i know its been a long while. honestly there is really nothing going on.

work is great. im so freakin busy im loving it!!! im actually moving again...right back where i was on the second floor....on friday. fun stuff. boss lady has been out all week and its been really really nice and relaxing....even with all the work i have.

sarah is doing good. i actaully spent the week with her and so far shes doing great. shes actaully starting to show a little. im not sure if its just her getting bigger from food or its the baby. (or babies) doc appt on the 21st. ill let you know how that goes.

my CAT who i love and adore and can't live without but will become chinese food IF SHE DOESNT' SHUT UP!!!!! omg...ever since sarah and the dogs moved out she never stops. constant meowing. C.O.N.S.T.A.N.T!!!!! its enough to drive you batty. i might have to get her a friend. but i don't know. ill have to think about that one and talk to the roomie too....

heh....ya know what im having right now.....for most you'll probably say EW!! but i know this will bring warm fuzzies to my mom so im going to share....

im eating a banana sandwhich :D love you mommy!!

speaking of mom.....while my brother is away (please keep him in your prayers) my mom is taking care of his kids (please keep her in your prayers as well...lol) for the next 14 months or so. they are 5 and 3. im sure shes having the time of her life....LOL

can you believe the holidays are here......here's an eye opener.....47 days till xmas. 16 days till turkey!!

Have a seat.....

2006-10-19T18:36:00.000-05:00

well hello there!!

so i finally have some things to talk about so here i am.

first my vegas/alburquerque (alb) trip. what a blast!!

(you can see all the pics on my flickr. link over there on the right)

(not the best pics, had to use my phone)

when i got to Vegas i was just amazed. right out of the gate at the airport i walked into a casino!! AT THE AIRPORT!! i so wanted to just jump right in but i had to go get my bag. the airport was really crowded (in IL too) and i thought that was strange for a thursday but hey...i was in vegas what did i know. so i got to baggage claim and met my friend Maggie and we headed over to the car rental place to get the car we needed for our road trip.

i need to give you a little background so you'll understand a bit why i made this trip. my friend of 23 years that i love and adore had some.....to put it nicely....issues. shes had it really rough for the last 5 years and has gone a little mental since. just so you know, im not making fun or being harsh...she'll tell you herself shes crazy. i was being nice.....LOL ok so anyway....with help from me and other organizations she was able to get some help to move on with her life. so she decided that she needed to be with family and was going to move to Alb. she gave up her license and she can't take a plane cuz she has a 200 lb st benard and well.....that just wasn't happening. so the plan was i fly to vegas and drive her to Alb. (8 hours, no biggie) were renting a car because her car needed some work and she didn't feel good about taking it for a long trip so the movers are going to tow the car. sounded like a plan to me and off i go.

i haven't seen maggie in a few years so it was great to see her. we get to the car rental place and they pull up her reservation and he takes my information since im driving.....and then the problems start. now ive rented cars before and i guess ive never really ran into this problem before but apparently the driver has to be the one with the credit card. which i don't have. i have a debit card which they don't take. and they won't take my friends credit card cuz shes not the driver. ok....so we went home.

i get to her house and its completly empty. the movers came the day before and took her stuff minus a few odd and ends and i see two set ups on the floor which i found out were dog beds covered in sheets for us to sleep on. we were leaving first thing friday morning. so that was fine....we got some dinner and watch Grays Anatomy which she taped for me and went to sleep.

Hagar (dog) had a 730 am appt at the groomers. maggie left me sleeping and came back with coffee and muffins and we proceeded to make phone calls. apparently everyone does this. so i had the brilliant idea of renting a uhaul. now i know that it doesn't matter who pays cuz ive done that lots of times. so we figured all we would need is a van, hagar would be set and we can put the rest of the stuff in there and be on our way. problem #1...vans don't go out of state and the trucks don't have cabs for a 200 lb dog.....

so maggie makes a phone call, tells me to get directions and find a hotel halfway (it was around noon and we still had a few things to do) and that she would be right back. ok.......

so she came back. with the money she had to rent a car...she got her car fixed instead.

problem solved. EXCEPT.......she gave up her license therefore had to give up her plates so were now driving a car with 3 year old expired IL plates (she used to leave here) on it.

ALRIGHTY THEN!!

so its about 3pm now and were loading the truck getting the last of her stuff and finally around 6'ish....were heading out the driveway to comence operation road trip!

of course doing a few hail mary's and praying praying praying.........we don't get pulled over.

so maggie (my friend with no license) is driving us out of vegas. she doesn't think i can handle the moutains and windy roads. ok fine. i didn't mind since i got to check out views and scenery for about an hour till it got dark. my job was to read signs and directions, check speed and look for cops. im a damn good sign reader too. even ones that say....."security check point ahead"....as we approach Hoover Dam.

me:

um...."what does that mean?.....maggie.....security checkpoint??.....maggie.....what does that mean maggie.......omg.......omg.....oh god.....maggie???

maggie:

S.H.U.T. U.P!!!

me:

ok....im not going to panic....were not going to jail........

maggie:

biting her nails.......

so my thoughts were as i processed this sign was that that was for hoover dam visitors and they would most likely check durning the day.

there was a rv camper thing in front of us that got pulled over to get checked....

at this point im about ready to pass out im so freaked

the guy in the little house saluted us and maggie as like....."what does that mean??? can i go??" he saluted again and we were OUTTA THERE!!!!

i haven't thanked God so much in all my life. and then i saw little mountain goats on the side of the road that i thought were deer!! very cool

then a mountain lion crossed the road in front of us like he owned the road....that was cool too. the animal crossing signs cracked me up. we have deer crossing here....they have Elk Crossing and the sign looks like hes showing you his ass, so of course i had to say "Elk Butt Crossing" cuz im a dork like that and you love it! im going to see if i can find that sign....its hysterical!

you know the best part about the trip. we packed a bunch of carefully selected CD's.....janis joplin, the best of the 80's, and i few others i can't remember since those are the only two we listened too.....but we were like 4 hours into the drive, almost at the hotel when we realized that we didn't even put the radio on we were talking so much! it was a nice drive.

we decided to cut the trip into 2 days (which i was grateful for since i slept on dog beds the night before and now sitting in a car for 5 hours) and stopped at Flaggstaff, AZ to spend the night at a hotel in a bed....a real bed!! LOL we then proceeded to order just about everything from Pizza Hut since all we ate was a muffin and coffee at 9am and it was not somewhere between 10 and midnight. i can't tell you exactly what time it was cuz everyone had a different time so i seriously had no clue. mountain time sucks.

the next day i drove and it was a nice easy 5 hour drive to Alb, NM and i met her cousins and we had a fantastic weekend. they are very christian and so i learned a lot about Jesus...which was nice. i had several amazing moments one being blessed by this woman preacher at church who heard our story and wanted to say a prayer for us which was also very nice and the proceed to sit down and then handed me a $100 bill from her purse and said "i am told you are to recieve this" and handed me this money. i was floored and was taken back by it and she wouldn't let me refuse it. i was truly amazed. and very emotional on top of being overwhelmed with emotion already by something i will get into later.......it was a very hard day.

we went home and ate and i went to lay down and slept the entire day. i woke up to a house full of people and we had a bbq and a really nice night. i loved looking out and seeing mountains. we sat outside a lot. a few houses down they had roosters that crowed all day. you just don't see that stuff around here. the one that that floored me was there was no grass. hardly any green. i kept looking for it. it was weird not to see. lawns were made of stone or dirt. strange.

so i came home that monday and the roomie picked me up and we got some ihop on the way home...i took an early flight and i went home and layed in my bed till sarah came by after work.

are you sitting??

so sunday while im sitting outside enjoying the mountain view, listening to roosters drinking my coffee waiting to go to church i get a call from sarah.

its official...

she's pregnant.

soooooo...now you understand why church was just WAY OVER THE TOP full of emotion. im gonna be a GRANDMA!!!! lol

at first i was freaked and so was she obviously but after long talks and more long talks they are going to make this work and were all very happy now. im really excited, worried, happy and scared especially now that i find out that twins run in both familes and that she would be the one to have them. so the next 7 months will be pretty interesting and ill be sure to have updates.

other than that, work is great. they have been giving me me so much work and responibilty and access to stuff i have no business having...LOL.....its pretty funny.

well grays is on...ill be back!!!

ok im back. seriously love that show!!!

so not only is she pregnant but she also moved....far away. so if anything should happen i can't get to her right away. even her boyfriend is too far to get her. he'll be moving in in a few months, then i won't worry so much about her being alone...but now....at the most critical time.....i worry. but we also work together so i see her everyday and am able to check on her. im also going with her to her doctor appts. to make sure everything is going good and because ive never had this opportunity and i want to be involved. and she wants me to be involved...i asked.....so im happy about that. but yes.....were having a baby!!

So...um....i think thats about it for now. ill be updated my other site too as i have made some major health changes......and life changes......but im not doing that tonight. if your on my notify over there......you'll know when i do.

much love, jeannine

YEAH BABY!!

2006-09-28T10:32:00.000-05:00

howdy folks....

not that its so un-like me to not update on a daily basis cuz lets face it....

a month can go by and i won't update...but i felt the need to let you all know that i will not

be updating this weekend because.....

I'M GOING TO VEGAS BABY!!

yes im finally getting there and i can now say that i have been there.....

even if it is just for one day.

so i leave for vegas tonight (thursday) and tomorrow were driving to Alberquerque, NM

which should be fun. never been to either place and taking a road trip to boot!!

so looking forward to it.

ill be back on monday! have a great weekend!!

ill try and take lots of pics.

ciao!!

Niagra Falls In My Bedroom.....

2006-09-14T00:11:00.000-05:00

I'm sick. I'm doing ok. Still have this stupid tickle and cough...but as long as i don't talk much.....I'm ok. I bought Halls today so it doesn't get out of hand.

so let me tell you about my adventures yesterday.......

so as you know i left early yesterday "due to cough" (mostly) and i took my happy ass to Wal-Mart to get a few things....

Gray's Anatomy DVD set
couple of shirts
check out shoes
check out desk chair
bowls

so i go and grab some t-shirts that i love and needed cuz my others were getting worn out.....
went over to the shoe dept and found two pairs of shoes for work one of which I'm wearing today and is so far working out. went to electronics and picked up the DVD set. now i need to rewind here.......

a couple of weeks ago i pre-ordered this on Amazon for like 38 bucks. no shipping. which i thought was a good deal and they would have it delivered by Thursday.

i checked out the Wal-Mart website and it was $44. i thought that was strange. checked out best buy and it was $34.99!! so i cancelled the Amazon order and decided i would save myself a few dollars and go to best buy. THEN i called the Wal-Mart i used to work for and asked how much the DVD set was and he said $33!! turns out that online and the store are two different things. so i was GREAT! now there is a Wal-Mart on my way home (not the one i called) so i stopped there and now back to yesterday......

i went over to electronics and found the DVD and it was marked $47!! i was thinking that HAD to be wrong...so i had them check the price and sure enough.....$47. now i know that Wal-Mart's don't compete with each other but they do match other stores like best buy and circuit city etc.....so i questioned them about why the price was so high since BB & CC was sooo much cheaper and that they were supposed to be lower etc.......

well long story short....they pulled out the CC ad and said they would match there price and i was like....do you have the BB ad??? they are $34.99 and i would rather pay that...LOL and so i got the DVD set for a mere $35 buckaroo's!!!

my body was hurting so bad from coughing, my feet hurt from my shoes being so bad, all i wanted to do was go home and watch GA.

but i still had to stop at Aldi's. and i did and man i love that store. I'm good for about a month now on $25. you just can't beat that!! and now finally i am on my way home.

I can't even begin to tell you how bad I'm hurting. it has been raining all week and dreary and cold and every bone is my body is screaming!! so on top of back pain, feet pain, body aching, I've got cramps and I'm bleeding like a slaughtered pig (sorry) and i had to pee sooo bad. it was about 4-430 when i finally got home.

as i pull into my driveway it starts to drizzle a little. no biggie

get into the house with all my bags....run to the potty to find out that my "friend" was not as bad as i thought it was and went down and put my groceries away.......and finally able to get undressed, put on my comfy house clothes and slippers and finally get to watch GA.

but before i do that i want to check my email real quick, while i have some dinner which was something quick i picked up at Aldi's and i can hear the rain coming down.

now...its no secret i live in the basement right. so my windows have wells right. my computer desk is a huge freakin corner desk under said window......right. and I'm hearing this odd sound like water pouring into a cup only 10 times louder.....you know what i mean.

so i lift the curtain to see that the well...which has a drain mind you.....is filling up and is now above the window line.....of the open window that i cannot close because of my stupid huge corner desk blocking it and all i see is this waterfall pouring from the window down to my floor under my computer desk with all the wires and power strips and cords just flowing away into my bedroom on the part of the floor that is not yet carpeted but flowing to the carpeted area and soaking said carpet. water just flowing......under the walls to the back storage area and out to where the washer and dryer is...flooding that area.......

so while all that is happening.......when i first saw the water coming in i quickly called the roomie who is out of town, for guidance.......LOL.....really to find out if there was a drain tile there and its most likely clogged so i hang up with her and now mind you i am in my comfy house clothes that i DO NOT where outside......pair of old sweat pants cut into shorts that are very big on me (no string to tie....I've had the pants for years, i can't bear to part with them so made them into shorts....i have issues) and are basically just hanging on and tee shirt...no bra/slippers. HOUSE CLOTHES!!!!!

so i ran in the back to grab a broom handle and i run upstairs (well walk very fast) open the back door to what looked like monsoon rain just pouring so hard and so fast and SO MUCH!!! that our lawn literally was a pool of water it was coming down that fast.......now our yard is fenced in and the window is just outside the gate which is locked and i had about 12 keys in my hand not knowing which one was it and wouldn't you know the 1 most least obvious key which was also the last one i tried because i thought for sure that that was NOT the key......was the key.

by now i am soaked from head to toe. i was soaked 5 seconds out the door. trying to walk across the lawn to get to the other side....i should have swam i would have gotten there faster. i was sinking in mud.

so i finally got the gate open and I'm poking around the inside of the well cuz i can't see anything inside there but water pouring into my bedroom.......finally i tapped the well and the water drained..........

i get back to the house and i am literally drenched from head to toe.......holding my shorts up cuz now they are soaked and heavy and don't want to stay up......i go back downstairs and asess the situation. now before i ran up i needed a quick fix so i threw my comforter down to stop the flow and soak up. i figured that can be washed.....and it was all i could think of to stop the water......

so i spent the next couple of hours mopping, cleaning, trying to get all this damn water out, my rug is soaked......and all i wanted to do was watch Grey's Anatomy. it was about 930pm when i finally was able to lay down and watch the show. and no i didn't get nuts and watch all of it. i watch the bonus DVD and one of the extended episodes and then i crashed.

and that was my night.....

5 Years Later........

2006-09-11T07:00:00.000-05:00

Say a prayer today for those who lost a loved one on this day

Light a candle for those who died a tragic death

Tell someone near and dear to you......

"I Love You"

All the News that is Fit to Print

2006-09-05T21:49:00.000-05:00

Rest in Peace crocodile man.....You crazy bastard! I am really sad about this. I thought he was nuts but I also thought we was cool. Real.

so what's new....

Sarah moved out. Officially last weekend. She's gone. She's now living with a friends sister for the month and Oct 1 is going to moving to the city in her own apartment. She got approved today. I'm very happy for her.

this whole move thing was kinda weird for me. At first its what I wanted. We both wanted. I'm not really sure who wanted it more. Me cuz I couldn't deal with bullshit anymore and her cuz she didn't want to live the one rule I have. And so at first when it was really happening I sort freaked out and ended up talking to my friend who just basically listened to me cry all night......And now.....Its just quiet.

I have this space now and I don't know what to do with it. So many thoughts.first I know I want to paint. I have a month. She still has stuff here and we work together so its not like I won't see her.....Its just strange not having someone to come home too or wait for someone to come home.I know its for the best. I know it will make us better friends. And now I can move on with my life. As soon as I find it.still.....In the back of my mind is that worry. And its kinda hard to let it go.

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Sarah
You've grown so much these last few years. I know it hasn't been easy. For both of us. But I've never stopped loving you, no matter what I might say. You are a part of my life and will always be a part of my life, where ever life takes me. We will always be connected in some way.Remember how smart you are, don't take shit from nobody, and don't let anyone take advantage of your kind heart. Be careful out there. And you better call me if your ever in trouble or you need help, ill be there for you always.
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Somebody's birthday is coming up!!! HEE!!!well there seriously isn't much going on here. I have a lot of cleaning and re organizing to do and trying to find the energy to do it.

and I'm getting sick.

Work, Work and More Work

2006-08-17T18:03:00.000-05:00

to say that i have been a little busy would be an understatement. ive been BIZAY!!

which is a good thing. they have been talking about cutting my hours but since that talk ive been nothing but BOMBARDED with projects and lots of work. which is great! i don't want my hours cut. so that has been good. and fun too. ive been learning so much about this "tool" that they use and it will really help me out in the long run when i get this program down pat. job security....gotta love it.

hmmm.....

ummmm.........

ok yeah...nothing else really going on....lol

oh wait! there is lots going on here if you interested.....that i update often...

sarah is looking for an apartment. we went to some places to day to get brochures. its hard cuz she has dogs.....but were going to do some research online and check out other places that take pets. she shes steady moving on that. more on that another time...im not really up to talking about how i feel right now.....needless to say.....its going to be very hard. very very hard.

oh a very cool thing happened yesterday. one of my very best friends is going to be in Milwaukee (she lives in NY) next month which is about an hour away and well be getting together when shes here. im so excited. we were very close in school...she lived down the block from me....inseperable.....the last time i saw her was at her wedding 7 years ago....(now divorced) so i am very excited to be seeing her again.

one more hour to Gray's Anatomy. my all time i wish it would never end most favorite show!!!

tonight is an awsome episode btw...if your interested. ive seen it like 3 times already...it never gets old. must have dvd set......i think ill add it to my wish list!!
so the roomie and i are tossing around the idea to do ceramics or pottery again or take an art class......more on that when it happens. im excited i love being creative.

ok i think that is really it this time......

have a good night!

Saturday Night

2006-08-12T23:16:00.000-05:00

well ive been home for about a week now and i know i haven't written much about my trip....reason being is that i don't have any pics yet. i would hate to write and entry without showing you some pictures....so when i get that done...ill give you the update of my trip.

but for now ill give you this....i had the best time and i hated to come back. it was as hot as hell so i never did go to the beach....we ate out a few times and mom cooked my favorites, i swam just about every day and loved it...went to an art show that has sparked some creative juices....just wish i had somewhere to do it in....and the plan ride wasn't as bad as it thought it was going to be.

when i get the pics developed...ill tell you more.

other than that...there really isn't much to tell. work is good. they are giving me more and more each day which is great since they were talking about cuting my hours because they didn't think there would be enough work...think again....i got plenty of it now....lol

sarah and i commutte which is nice. she also got a second job...which is also nice for her. im hoping that with all this money that shes making she'll get her own place and i can move on with my life. that would be nice. time will tell.

oh and i guess shes no longer gay since she now has a boyfriend. yeah...figure that one out.

i wish she would get her own place already. i need to no be involved in her life so much cuz this shit drives me nuts.

anyway...thats about it. it was a nice day today. had lunch with a friend, went to bingo with another friend and now im home wishing i had some place to go.

have a great weekend!

Coming Home.....

2006-08-07T23:15:00.000-05:00

....and im very sad.

not only am i sad but im going to be totally humiliated. i hate this. i have nothing to come home too.

i had such a great time here...which ill tell you all about when i get home adn i get my pics developed....and im not on dial up...ugh

i wish i could stay here.....anywhere but there.

ugh...anyway..this dial up is driving me crazy......

untill i get back......ciao

Hello From South Carolina!!

2006-08-04T12:50:00.000-05:00

were here at the library again so i thought i would take advantage of high speed internet since mom only has dial up and i could have a baby in the same amount of time it would take to do an entry there.....

i won't have pictures for you till i get back cuz i don't have a digital camera anymore so i need to get them developed and on a disk and downloaded...etc etc....but i will have some pics.

were sorta relaxing today. we got up early and went to the pool this morning for about an hour or so until some guy came by trying to get us to open the gate since he "left his card home"....yeah right....scammer. we weren't biting. he left saying he was going to get the card...but went in the opposite direction he pointed to when we asked him and then never came back. i found myself getting very uncomfortable with the idea of him being there and sorta had a little moment of panic....but was glad when he left. we ended up leaving shortly after.

its normally just the two of us and im comfortable with that. i thought i would be ok if others showed up but when he did....i was very self conscious and not happy at all.....i guess that is somehting i just need to get over.

in due time.

so were running some errands today. don't really have much planned. yesterday was a full day.

up early to swim, ran some errands, did some shopping, had lunch at this sushi place that was yummy, and a funny thing happened at sams club while trying to get cucumbers for our dinner salad......

we were looking at the seedless ones that my mom noticed the sticker date was like 7/31. so we looked through them all and they all had the same date.....first we decided no we wouldn't take them, then realized they didn't have the other ones so i was like...its only a couple of days and they were good....we were trying to think of what else to put in the salad.....

i realized then the time.....it was around 4pm........we've been out since 11'ish.....get were im going here.....

mom then makes that "fuck it" motion and storms back in the fridge and proceeds to search through the cucumbers again...and i say.....

"somebody's a little cranky today.....someone didn't get there nappy time..(in my little person voice) and there is my mom....hysterical on the cucumbers.....

ok well my time is up here...just wanted to share that little story.

i will for now on make sure she gets her nap every day......

I've Arrived!!

2006-08-02T16:29:00.000-05:00

This is another quicky just to let you all know that im here in SC with my mom and arrived safely.

i got here at 2pm, went home, had lunch, put in a movie, took a nap and now were at the libray! so i thought i would take advantage of high speed and put up a quick note.

Ill get into more detail later i can say this.....ITS FUCKING HOT!!

have a great day!!

Quick Entry

2006-07-30T22:22:00.000-05:00

Howdy Folks...sorry i haven't been around in a while and while i would like to say that my life is just so exciting and i just have no time for you dear readers...such is not the case.

in fact my life is not exciting at all there fore....nothing to write. until today.

Just so you all know and not worry...i might not be around for about a week as i am going on vacation leaving this wednesday for South Carolina to visit my mom. im sure i will be on her computer from time to time to check emails and such and i might procduce and entry or two...but no guarentees. you should be used to this by now.....lol

there was some excitement in the neighborhood today.....thankfully not our house but unfortuatley these people didn't deserve it either especially since they have been calling and calling to have these dead trees that belong to the other house.......removed. and well you know how the city works....nothing gets done untill something catastrophic happens.....and so now dead tree lays on there house doing much damage and so now the city has cut both trees down. now if they only came and did there job in june like promised......this would not have happened.
my heart really goes out to them too cuz they are the nicest people.....really.

in other news....sarah got a job at the same company i am working for so that has been nice communting in her car (she has ac) and forcing me to be on time....lol. its cool though. she likes the job and is very happy and so im happy for her. things are starting to look up for her and im really happy and proud of her.

im really excited about my trip....i can't wait. im not looking forward to the plane rides but ill deal. my fault my problem, ill make the best of it and apologize in advance for anyone sitting next to me.....my bad.

ok well thats all that is going on for now.

take care!!!!

im outta here!

Quick Ebay Note

2006-07-08T16:10:00.000-05:00

I'm selling some stuff on Ebay.....

Beaded Jewelry that i made myself.....

It ends in around Midnight tonight but i will repost anything that doesn't sell....

so if your interested.....

Stop on by!!!

There is a link over there under "All About Me"

Thanks!!!

Blogthings

2006-07-08T03:16:00.000-05:00

Your Aura is Blue

Spiritual and calm, you tend to live a quiet but enriching life.
You are very giving of yourself. And it's hard for you to let go of relationships.

The purpose of your life: showing love to other people

Famous blues include: Angelina Jolie, the Dali Lama, Oprah

Careers for you to try: Psychic, Peace Corps Volunteer, Counselor

What Color Is Your Aura?

You Are Most Like George W. Bush

So what if you're not exactly popular? You still rule the free world.
And while you may be quite conservative now, you knew how to party back in the day!

What Modern US President Are You Most Like?

so not happy about that one...ugh!!!

Arty Kid

Whether you were a drama freak or an emo poet, you definitely were expressive and unique.

You're probably a little less weird these days - but even more talented!

Who Were You In High School?

You Are A Professional Girlfriend!

You are the perfect girlfriend - big surprise!
Heaven knows you've had enough practice. That's why you're a total pro.
If there was an Emily Post of girlfriends, it would be you.
You know how to act in every situation ... to make both you and your guy happy.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?

You Communicate With Your Eyes

When you say, "I'll believe it when I see it" - you really mean it.
For you, what you see is a lot more important than what you hear.
You don't take someone's words at face value. You judge people by their facial expressions, body language, and appearance.
You tend to be quiet, but when you talk, you tend to make eye contact and describe things in colorful detail.

How Do You Communicate?

Your Brain is 60% Female, 40% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female
You are both sensitive and savvy
Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed
But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

You're an Passionate Kisser

For you, kissing is about all about following your urges
If someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of story
You can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kisses
A total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

Your Personality Is

Guardian (SJ)

You are sensible, down to earth, and goal oriented.
Bottom line, you are good at playing by the rules.

You tend to be dominant - and you are a natural leader.
You are interested in rules and order. Morals are important to you.

A hard worker, you give your all at whatever you do.
You're very serious, and people often tell you to lighten up.

In love, you tend to take things carefully and slowly.

At work, you are suited to almost any career - but you excel in leadership positions.

With others, you tend to be polite and formal.

As far as looks go, you are traditionally attractive. You take good care of yourself.

On weekends, you tend to like to do organized activities. In fact, you often organize them!

The Three Question Personality Test

You love me.....

2006-07-07T08:42:00.000-05:00

I have been the biggest geek these days.......AND I JUST CAN'T STOP MYSELF!!!

i can't stop watching N@S@ TV!!! I don't know why im finding this all so fasinating NOW...ive never watched this stuff before?!?!? but now, im live streaming at home, at work, im thinking about it on my way home...and they are not even like intelligent thoughts either...no...im fasinated by the whole space thing. here are my thoughts.....you can laugh when your done....

One minute inside Jeannine's mind.....

hmm...i wonder how hard it is to move that arm thingy....
how cool it must be to float all day long....
heh.....that guy was flying like superman.....
she needs to do something about that ponytail....
that arm thingy is moving really slow.....
does everything in space move that slow?
i wonder if i would float?

i wonder what sex is like in space!!!
everytime i see that guy hes eating!!
omg he just picked his nose!!! ha ha ha (he really did...ON CAMERA!!)
i wonder why we can't hear the conversation on the ship?
i wish they would make this screen bigger...
looks like an awful lot to do in there?
I'd be playing with all the buttons....
how cool is it to be in space....i would be freaking out!!
is it always dark in space? i think so...yeah...it is right?? damn...brainfart.
how cool would it be to work there.
maybe not....cameras....yuck
if i watch enough think i could get a job there??
(ok that was just added so you can smack your head and say DUH!!)
etc...etc....commence laughter now.......ill wait.
ok....so there you have it. official dork!
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3 weeks to South Carolina!! woo hoo can't wait...HI MOM!!
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i can't tell you enough how i just LOVE a short week.
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Happy Friday Everyone!
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I'm out!

Ch-Ch-Ch-Changes!!!!

2006-07-04T18:56:00.000-05:00

Howdy Folks

well here it is...the end of my 4 day weekend and i have to say it was time well spent.

i really didn't do much of anything and im ok with that. it was a nice relaxing, didn't have to worry or do anything but what i did. and that was a little bit of cleanning up, worked a little, rested and relaxed.

was it hot outside?? i really wouldn't know. oh ive been out to throw the trash out and i felt the humidity for about 5 seconds.....but that was it. were i live...its cool. the fan is nice and breezy and all is good. yeah we had to turn the AC on a little, but all in all....it was the perfect weekend.

im actually looking forward to going to work tomorrow. a 3 day week. gotta love it. ahhh remindes me of the old days......LOL

so do you like the new look?? I needed a change. one day i'd like to venture out and get my own domain again and have a nice site...but for now...this will do.

well...thats really all that there is to say. not to much going on here, per usual.

if your missing any fireworks today...make some of your own! HERE its very cool! Make sure you click your mouse over her head. the faster you go the more you will see!!

Have a Happy and Safe 4th of July!!

Day One of 4

2006-07-01T13:20:00.000-05:00

Very Cute!!

so its the start of my 4 day weekend and so far so good. its a beautiful day outside but thats irrelivant (sp?) since i won't be out there much. which is also fine cuz i hear its hot. I was out earlier this morning when i went to my meeting and then breakfast but other than that i don't plan on leaving again unless something comes up.

my agenda for the weekend.......

1. working. ive scheduled myself throughout the weekend so that i can get in some hours and make a little bit of money since this is the last weekend before i get paid. I will not be attending bingo (unless someone wants to take me) so this leaves me some time to do this and get things done here.

2. clean up storage area. i have boxes under the stair that have been sitting there since ive moved here and for the most part i know what is in them and they will most likely stay there but i want to just pull everything out check out the contents clean up the area (very dusty) and then put them back in an orderly fashion. most of that will be my dads stuff but there are a few other boxes there that i have no idea what is there.

3. get rid of clutter. not that we have a whole lot but there is some there and its time to just get rid of it.

and that is about it. now whether this gets done is another story but that is the plan. i remember having the same plan last year but it never happened. this time im pretty sure most will get done. i feel ambitious...lol
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so the roomies have left for the weekend and we have the house to ourselves.

PAAAAAARTEEEY!!

no not really, but i will admit it is nice having the house to myself. feeling like a homeowner i tell ya...LOL. so this morning i put up a pot of beans and later on im making some rice and veggies and yummy!!! thats all i have to say.
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ugh...this is why i don't work during the afternoon cuz the phone just doesn't ring.
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well not to much going on....its pretty quiet here. lets see....any sarah news??? shes doing ok. she transffered schools and is not going to one closer to home which is a whole lot better and shes much happier about it.
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later this day......

well i ended up going to bingo after all...thank you becky. shes my Bingo Ho...heh and thanks to her winning 50 bucks...i won 10. we share. so all in all was a good night.

im working right now and for the life of me don't want to be doing this. im not in the mood to deal with these people tonight. every call is pissing me off more and more and i just need to quit this tonight. but i won't. im already on thin ice as it is and i don't want my contract taken away. i like haveing this back up job....just in case. you never know. just not in the mood tonight. ugh!!!

i made a pot of beans and some rice and its yummy!!

enjoy the weekend everyone!

Meme of sorts.....

2006-06-29T20:25:00.000-05:00

Crap I forgot all about the Tuesday threes this week.....UGH!!! Let me get it....BRB
and don't worry there is a real entry after this......
just scroll down if your not interested.

List three of your favorite quotes:
1) Everything happens for a reason
2) one day this will all be a blur
3) this too shall pass

List three toys you loved when you were a child:
1) the slinky (still do love it)
2) I know I had a doll I loved, according to my mom
3) and this oven bake thing that really worked....LOL

List three things you always put off:
1) waking up early..snooze...snooze...snooze...Etc.....
2) paying bills
3) and these days....Meeting people, friends and family.

and the other one......

if you would like to participate, just copy and paste in the comments,
thanks!! Ill have mine in there too....

1. Name:
2. Birthday:
3. Place of residence:
4. What makes you happy:
5. What are you listening to now/have listened to last:
6. Do you read my blog:
7. If you do, what is particularly good/bad about it:
8. An interesting fact about you:
9. Are you in love/do have a crush at the moment:
10. Favorite place to be:
11. Favorite lyric:
12. Best time of the year:
13. Do you remember when we met?
14. Have I been a good friend to you?
15. Tell me something you've never told me before.

PLUS
1. One thing you like about me:
2. Two things you like about yourself:
3. Put this in your lj/diary/blog so I can tell you what
I think of you.
4. Post a picture of you (if possible):

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ok now for the real entry....

there has been some rain in the forecast ..Have you heard??? I can't
get over the east coast and how much they have been hit. Its pretty scary.....

so I'm coming out of walmart last week and I see this!! It was actually
double but you can't see the other one. It was on
Gay Pride day too...Very cool.The pic doesn't show how
bright it was. You could see all the colors well defined...It was awesome.

and this has to be the funniest freaking this EVAH!!!

ok were (Becky and I) sitting at bingo when I hear Becky say....
"oh my"..But in a frightened sorta way.....

and I looked up and THIS is whaI i saw.....

ok i have to explain this. this woman is one of the workers there who "looks like"
this very quiet, shy mousy type woman, church going, volunteers, very sweet and
not the thong wearing, ass hanging out all over the place kinda woman.

well the table in front of us caught on (were all sitting behind her) and Becky goes into uncontrollablele hysterics to the point of not breathing, she throws me her papers at me and
runs to the bathroom and I'm there dabbing both our papers through tearI'm laughing so hard. Everyone around us in complete hysterics and the best part about all this is that this woman
HAD NO CLUE!!!!

you can't get this kind of entertainment anywhere else folks....You just can't.

other than that there really isn't much going on. Work is getting to be a pain. They
are changing people around, I might be moving to another floor again. This woman
that is my so called "manager" is driving me up a wall and wants to cut my hours
.So my agent is looking to find me something else. Just a big pain in the ass she is. I want my old boss back.

I am sooooo looking forward to this wonderful 4 day weekend!!! I can't wait!

I was going somewhere but that got cancelled so ill be home resting and relaxing.
the rommies are going away so it will nice and quiet and I'm thinking about getting
some spring cleaning done if it should happen it will be something. LOL

until then........ciao!

Talking Elevators

2006-06-22T12:06:00.000-05:00

the strangest thing happened to me today.

background:
when i get to work i take the service elevator as opposed to the normal elevators cuz the service elevator is closer to where i sit. so its not an elevator that gets used a lot. so today i get it and all of a sudden the "place call" button lights up and i hear this girl talking....

now this elevator is as slow as mole-asses (heh) and i could probably get there faster if i took the stairs, BUT...thats a whole nutter entry all together so lets stick with the topic, mmk....cool.

so this girl....is trying to sell me a newspaper. in the elevator. so (thank Gawd) i was alone and i said "you are calling an elevator"....and she pauses....and then continues with the schpeal!!!

once again..."You are C A L L I N G an E L E V A T O R! (in case she was blonde i said it slowly) bacause aparently she didn't get it the first time.....and again......she pauses......and continues.

now im only on the second floor and man would i have LOVED to keep having this converstation cuz you just can't make this shit up folks. i was thinking i was on candid camera or something trying to get some sucker to get a subscription bought from the voice in the elevator.

so speaking of work....man am i busy!! they are giving me projects left and right and now i HAVE to be here.....which is a good thing. i like to be busy. it sounds like there is another move for me AGAIN because now the majority of the work that i will be doing is coming from the folks i orignally started with a year ago and since i don't have to much going on up here anymore...they are talking about moving me back down. i have mixed feelings about it. yeah its cool ill be on the first floor (closer to the door OUT!!...lol) however i lose my window and up here there is a lot more activity, people talk, and where im going is so fucking quiet. up here there lively.
one really cool thing about the new location is i will be closer to the water cooler. right now its like walking to idaho to get some water. and my space up here is bigger too. i really hate to move again....but i guess ill have too if they decide.

Hey im going to see my mom in August!!! woo hooooo!! Can't wait :o) a whole week! look out sushi bars...here we come!! mom and i always do sushi when were together. yum!!!

I'd like to give a big shout out to my good friend Becky who just celebrated her 40th birthday yesterday!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BECKY!!!
WOO HOOOOO

and on that note......
Adios!!

Tuesday kind of Thing

2006-06-21T00:52:00.000-05:00

List three of your irrational fears:

1) fear of dying
2) i always think im going to have a heart attack
3) i hate to fly

List three things you'd never eat:

1) bugs
2) people
3) yellow snow

List three things you regret:

1) breaking up with my first gf
2) gaining weight
3) screwing up my credit

not much going on, not much to say.....except here. same shit different day....basically. you've heard it all before....lol

have a good day!

Since its Technically Tuesday!!

2006-06-13T01:38:00.000-05:00

The Tuesday Three!

List three things you've drank today:

1) coffee
2) water
3) more water

List three things you've eaten today :

1) Mcdonalds Breakfast Burrito
2) Yogurt Parfait
3) chicken salad sandwhich

List three talents you wish you had:

1) x-ray vision
2) to be invisible
3) to predict the future and be right!

copy and paste to your blog go to www.tuesdaythree.blogspot.com and join in!!

Happy Pride!

2006-06-12T18:38:00.000-05:00

It wouldn't be right if I let the entire month go by without acknowleging Gay Pride Month.

I haven't yet been to any festivites. Our parade is the last sunday of the month....not sure if im going but who knows by then. one of these days ill get to one.

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I saw two things today that i have never ever wittnessed in my life before. one just just down right freaky and the other scared me half to death. lets go to the freaky one first.

behold.....

im not sure if you can see well but there is pasta on this slice of pizza. ive never in my life seen anything like this. ziti people. there is ziti on this slice of pizza. i don't even know what to say about it other than of course i had to try it and it was like eating pasta on pizza. one bite was all it took. couldn't even swallow it. i just don't understand it.

so not recommended

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you like my new fishy. you can play with him and feed him.

the things i do for you all.....

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sitting in my car, playing with my camera phone i took this....

it was raining this is the garden at my friends house. you can't really see the growth but its there. as you can see its a HUGE garden!
This is the pumpkin. they are going to be so big!!

heh...can't wait!
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when i was a kid there was this drink called Manhattan Special. you can still get it but its hard to find. its a coffee soda. really really good. as a kid it was like getting a treat to be able to have some. so when i heard about this new Coca-Cola Blak i thought "Cool!" and then i tried it......BLECH!!! is all i can say. totally gross. tasted like coke with black coffee. not sweetened. it was just gross. cool bottle though.

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ok the other freaky thing that happened to me...well that i witnessed today i don't think i will ever forget. i have never seen anything like it in all my life and i hope to God i never see it again. i was driving home on the tollway northbound going home and on the southbound side going toward chicago, at the same time i was passing this 18 wheeler starts flipping!!!

everyone on my side starting moving to the right cuz we didn't know where this thing was going to land....no one on our side got into any crashes but the the trailer was laying across all 3 lanes and traffic was stopped on that side. i know it hit cars and i don't really know any detail other than that but it was really fucking scary to see that thing all of a sudden start flipping around. im hoping they do a story on it on the news so i can find out what happened. this was around 3pm. at 5 i was listening to the radio traffic report and they were still at a deadlocked.

i can't even imagine. i just only hope that nobody got hurt to bad.

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Hells Kitchen starts tonight! YEAH BABY!!!

LOVE THAT SHOW!

ok well i guess that is all for now.

ciao baby!!

Hello 40!

2006-06-10T04:39:00.000-05:00

The day was beautiful. The sky was clear, the clouds were bright as you can see. it was a clear not so hot comfortable day. i went to work with a smile on my face. it was my day. im 40 today and i feel great! i wasn't at work for very long. a couple of hours. i need to get some sleep as my birthday celebration started at midnight at Ihop with cindy. we had a good time and i received some really great presents from her....2 cd's and a hershey kiss candy dish that sings to you. its really cute. she also made me a cake which was yummy.

after that i was on the phone all night with my dear friend Maggie (my vegas friend) and didnt' really get to sleep till almost 6am....i only slept for a few hours cuz the phone didn't stop ringing but that was cool. i spoke to people i havent talked to in years!! litereally. i got in touch with my old best friend from 20 years ago and that was cool. a few NY freinds called me and my first girlfriend who i still keep in touch with called me and that was the highlight. she always makes me feel good. after that i was pretty much up and off to work for a little while. there really wasn't anything to do there so i could have stayed home.

then i was home and basically went to bed. i needed to sleep some cuz i knew it was going to be a late night. i was meeting my friends at bingo for my bingo birthday party. LOL it was great. we had a great time and everyone there had fun with us. i got a lot of free stuff too which was very cool. didn't win any money, but maria did and that was great. we had pizza, the roomie made cookies, maria came with chips and dip and becky brought the cake. so yummy!! a good time was had by all. afterwards we went to the local bar for a drink and then i was meeting someone afterwards so we all went home. they all had to work. i took the day off. heh

i got home on thursday and crashed. sarah and i went to dinner and saw a movie. she got me a cd ive been wanting and birthday cards which was really nice. i wasn't expecting anything and she really shocked me. we had a nice time since we never really hang out anymore. it was nice.

i also found out that my cousin had her baby and my sister is pregnant!! so that was awsome news! so i have to say that i honestly had a great birthday. and im really happy about that.

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so ive been trying to book a flight to see my mom for the longest time. i just can't seem to get dates that i want. its very frustrating. i want to do a thursday to monday but i can't seem to get anything except wed to tues. which is fine but i was trying not to miss so many days at work. im going to keep looking though. im still trying to get to vegas.

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so all in all its been a pretty good couple of days. the weekend is here. not much going on. talk of fishing but its raining so we'll see. and other than work and bingo...not to much else going on.

have a good weekend everyone!

So Long 39....

2006-06-06T23:18:00.000-05:00

I took this pic a couple of years ago at the local beach.

so here it is....30 minutes to 40. im actaully feeling pretty good. im on my way out the door actually. going for my late night ihop run with a friend of mine for coffee and chat. most likely get something to eat since i haven't really eaten today. kinda hungry. i know i know...spare me the lecture....its my birthday damit!

so i talked to someone today who i used to be best friends with back when i was teenager so its been a good 15-20 years since ive seen or talked to her......she is still in the same place, living at home with her parents, same job, same life, nothing has changed. she had nothing to talk about. she never grew up. i almost felt bad for her and i realized how much i have grown and lived my life. and im happy about that. im happy with my life....and i know that it will only get better.

so i just wanted to do a real quick update while im still in my 30's. i hear 40 is a pretty cool age. i guess ill find out soon enough :o)

have a great day!!

here is today Tuesday Three!!

List three people you'd like to trade lives with for one week:

1) Oprah
2) God
3) a porn star

List three places in the United States you'd like to visit :

1) Vegas
2) Texas
3) South Carolina

List three songs that make you dance in your seat as soon as you hear them:

1) hips don't lie
2) in da club
3) i can't think of any others

Busy Weekend

2006-06-04T19:34:00.000-05:00

This is by far one of the many cutest pics off this website called CuteOverload.com that if you haven't checked it out yet....go on....i'll wait.

Welcome back!! was i lying?? the cutest shit you'll ever see.

wow busy weekend man. well it wasn't like packed jammed with stuff to do...but the stuff that i did do was definatly fun and got me out of the house and man o man im beat!!

it all really started on thursday actually. i had gone to bingo cuz i was bored and afterwards i went home and then got a call from my girls at walmart to go out. aparently there was drama going on and i needed to be filled in. i thought were were just going to go across the street to Denny's but instead ended up at this bar. we had time for one drink as they were closing and then ended up at another bar which closed later and we went there. after about 4 long island ice teas and a shot of yager...i was good to go. the bar is two blocks away from my house so i know i was good. we had a great time.

i woke up and decided to stay home since it was friday and i really didn't have much to do and the person i was working for was not going to be there anyway, so i took advantage of the day and rested. spent most of the day in bed until i had to work that night. i had only scheduled myself for a few hours (till 1am) cuz i had an early day on saturday as well and i didn't want to be up all night.

i never did get to sleep. lol

i found this really cool site off of the greys anatomy site where i can watch the last 5 episodes of Lost (and others) for free. FULL EPISODES!! so i ended up doing that and i must say that i am really disapointed at the way Lost ended.

so at 7am when all the shows were done cuz of course i can't stop watching till its all done, because IM A FREAK!!!...i took my shower and off to start my saturday! YEAH!!

as you may or may not know i started weight watchers again. this was my first week and you can read about it here. i'm doing it with my friend Cindy. the meeting starts at 8:30am so that will get my day started pretty early on saturday. I'll be joining the Y soon too and we'll do that together as well. Shes already a member. its so cool cuz at the meeting i met up with two ladies i used to work with at walmart so it was great seeing them and sharing with them.

Cindy has been really great about making my birthday special. on the 1st i got a great CD from her and on saturday she gave me a beautiful fruit basket that she put together herself with all kinds of great fruit, bananas, apples, oranges, pear, avacado, nuts it was really nice.

Thank you My Friend.

so after the meeting we went for an early lunch at this great Mongolian Stir Fry place that was just awsome. one of those places were you get the ingredients you want they cook it up for you on the grill. it was awsome. and really reasonable in price. i had chicken and shrimp with tons of veggies in a garlic peanut sauce and then i went for seconds and i got veggies and tofu with more shrimp and some mongolian sauce and more garlic. this brought back to me what i used to do when i first started weight watchers and lost a ton of weight. how i would buy a bag of mixed veggies, tofu and peanut sauce and cook it all together and that was my meal and i loved it. so im going to start that again.

after lunch i was truly exhausted. it was around 1:30pm when i got home and i slept for a couple of hours before i have to get ready for bingo at 6 then a full night of work when i got home from there. bingo was fun as usual. My bingo "ho" Becky (BIG BOY!) and the roomie had a good time and was just laughing the night away as we donated once again to the church. lol

so becky and i have been planning this fishing trip and we decided to go today (sunday). so last night after bingo was over she called me to go to walmart cuz we needed bait and we didnt' want to go in the morning. we planned on leaving at 6am. it was 11pm when she called. go i got dressed and she picked me up, we got the bait and dunkin donuts was open and so we went for coffee and it ended up hanging out for a couple of hours and didn't end up getting home till almost 2am. she was calling me at 6am to go fish.

5:45 am phone rings and were on our way fishing! it was a beautiful day. the sun was hot but it wasn't muggy out and i got a little burn and some color on my face which is nice. i need that. the only thing the fish were biting at was the bait. i swear these fish were trained. they must get fished a lot and know. and then there was this other bastard that kept jumping out of the water saying "ha ha you can't catch me".........fucker.

so i got home, again...exhausted and slept for a few hours and now here i am. typing to you :o)

so that was my weekend. it was great! i had a great time and im looking forward to next weekend too

3 more days to 40!!

Tuesday Three and Stuff

2006-05-30T20:46:00.000-05:00

List three items of clothing you'd hate to part with:

1)my sweats
2)my tees
3)my jeans

List three TV shows you wish would come back:

1)greys anatomy
2)queer as folk
3)will and grace

Political affiliations aside, list three people who you wish
would run for president:

1)Oprah
2)Hillary
3)Angelina.....heh

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welp....not a whole hell of a lot going on in these here parts. The weekend was pretty good. I worked at home a lot, slept, joined weight watchers again on saturday with a friend, you can read about it at the Feedbag Blog over on the sidebar there.....when i update. played bingo saturday night, can't remember sunday and monday i spent with my friend at her house. they had a bbq and we watched movies. met her mom. it was cool.

back to work today. they have been keeping me really busy. i actually have lots of work to do now. other than that things are pretty much the same.

boring.

2006-05-23T10:15:00.000-05:00

Today's Tuesday Three! On Time!!
Join the madness...

List three of your favorite comfort foods:

1) Ice Cream
2) Mc Chicken Sandwhich
3) Coffee....lotsa coffee with chocolate

List three celebrities you think are probably good people:

1) Oprah
2) Sandra Bullock
3) Julia Roberts

If you could whisper three things in the president's ear and you knew he'd seriously consider what you said, what would they be:

1) Approve Gay marriage.
2) Stop this insane war.
3) Go hunting with Dick.
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So this is Tuesday. I'm at work as usual doing nothing. well im doing something...just right at this moment...im not doing anything. why? cuz i have so much to do and really no ambition to do it. im kinda tired today. shouldn't be since i slept most of the day yesterday. i wasnt' feeling all that well and decided to stay home. which was cool since the boss lady was out. shes also out today which means its an early day for me as well.

so last night i went out to dinner with a friend and had way to much to eat but it was ok since i didn't eat anything all day so it was all good. just didn't have to eat as much as i did....or maybe i drank to much water......yeah thats it...lol

i am starting weight watchers again. was supposed to join on last saturday but had this horrendous toothache which lead to headache and i was not about to move....so next saturday will be the day. my friend however did join and so im going to unofficially start since i know the program as well and will be updating The Feedbag daily on my journey there. so sign up for the notify there if your intereseted. i won't be posting any of that here...since hopefully i will have other stuff to talk about here other than im fat and nobody loves me....lol

im starting to think that vegas is not going to happen. which really sucks. i really want to go. but i haven't talked to my friend yet so im going to think positive. any later though and i won't be able to go cuz i can't afford it ya know......cross your fingers.

i had a nice weekend. it was pretty busy. as i recall i didnt' sleep much...lol friday went to dinner and a movie with a friend. saturday pretty much had the toothache and didn't do anything till about midnight when i had to get out of bed to work. sarah bought me some advils so i was good to go by then. sometimes generic just isn't good enough. so i was up all night working and it was finally steady enough to make some money. then at 6am my friend came online and we got to talking about the day and next thing i know were heading out to walmart getting coffee, buying stuff for a bbq were have this day, bought some more stuff for the garden, went to kmart and i bought myself a new comforter bed set. gotta love kmart. any size, $39.99. for me that is awsome and im running there since i have a king size bed and you can never find anything decent for that price in king size. got me some new undies too and a new bra.

it felt really good too. in never spend money on myself unless its for food. i never go out to anything just for me. so it was nice to do that and im going to start doing it more often. i want to change my room around. im thinking of going blue. im not sure though. its a lot of work. and well...the new comforter matches what i have now. but ive been thinking about it. i need to change it around some. give it a new look.

yeah

A Late Tuesday Three!!

2006-05-17T15:19:00.000-05:00

I know its wednesday, been a little busy! shoot me....

Tuesday Three!!

List three things you do that tend to irritate those around you:

1) i never have to shave my legs....seriously. ever...in life
2) That i can work for 3 hours and get paid for 8
3) twirling my phone?

well that was fun. honestly i have never been told that something that i do irritates somebody. so if there is something....see comments below....i would love to know.

List three things those around you tend to do that irritates you:
1) when the president bumps my show...that bugs the crap outta me
2) this girl at bingo who NEVER shuts up and is constantly annoying!! UGH!!
3) when i dunk my cookie in my coffee/milk and it falls apart....grrrrrrr

If you could ask one question each to any three people, living or dead, who would the three people be and what question would you ask each one? Assume the answer would be 100% true.

1) Dear Angelina.....would you marry me?
2) Dear Love of my life.....WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU????
3) Dear Sperm Donor.....Are you alive?? If so ....how do you live with yourself?

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MEET FREDDIE!!

Freddie is my new Desk Mate. He lives at the office and thanks to a dear friend (who got the hints...lol) gave me this little guy to put on my desk with a sweet card. Thanks my friend!!

omg we went for dinner last night at ihop and 6 hours later we finally got up...lol...nothing like never ending coffee and good converstation to get you through the night. i haven't done that since renny was around so it was kinda cool since

here i go again.....no nevermind.

thats it for me. almost time to go home. BINGO tonight!! woo hooooo!!!

Happy Mothers Day!

2006-05-14T01:07:00.000-05:00

Its all about mom today!! So I would like to dedicate today's post to my wonderful mom who I love and adore more than life itself! And for all you other moms out there....I hope that your day is filled with love and happiness and family all around you. I sure do miss mine. I can't remember when we were all together. I think we need to have a family reunion!! This is crazy!!

I LOVE YOU MOMMY!!!

here's to your life!

This is my mom as a wee lil girl...ain't she the cutest!!

then we have Mom with mom
Mom with her number 1 child (literally) ...heh
Grandma!!!
Mom as a wife! Boogie Down Mom!!
Mom being Mom :o)

I'm sorry I couldn't I be there to share this day with you but know that I am thinking of you today like everyday and sending you lots of love and hugs your way.

I love you very much

Happy Mothers Day to you!

Picture Day!!

2006-05-13T01:29:00.000-05:00

Not really to much going on so i thought i would share part of my day with you....

i hope you enjoy!!

tonight i went out with a friend of mine. we went out to eat at Joes Crab Shack and has lotsa crab!!! it was sooo freakin good too. i took a pic of my plate!!

GOT CRABS??

I love being able to take pictures with my phone!! its so freakin cool!! and im a big DORK!!! lol The next ones are basically pictures of my "office" and how pathetic it looks . every ones elses cubby has so much stuff hanging off there walls (p.o. box 324, zion il 60099) and stuck to there walls, (p.o. box 324, zion il 60099) magnets everywhere!! and i have nothing!! (p.o. box 324, zion il 60099) NOTHING!! i tell ya (p.o. box 324, zion il 60099) but a calender and plaque my good friend Mel gave me years ago and now that i think of it she sent me (p.o. box 324, zion il 60099) another one that im staring at right now that i think i will add to my wall of nothing(p.o. box 324, zion il 60099). HEE!! anywhoo.....enjoy the tour! this is my new desk btw....i know i took some when i first started working there but things have changed a bit......

this is the left side of my desk....see the stacks of paper....project im working on

notice the walls.....NOTHING!!!

(p.o. box 324, zion il 60099)

this is the center of my desk....where the magic happens....LOL
and the right side....notice all the binders...hence the stack of papers.....read: project above
i have these magnet frames on my credensa and here is one of the pics.

my brother

this is the star that lives on my monitor

I've developed a green thumb and here is my desk plant!
another pic of my mom...i have sarah too but for some reason the pic didn't come through...ill have to check my phone again....
my phone, my pen holder and other office utencils and also the plaque i was talking about
My VIEW!! yes i have a window now!! its not much of a view but it works.
(p.o. box 324, zion il 60099)

;o)~

now that i think of it i have taken a few more pics that i don't see here.....my phone has been acting weird lately. i can text my one friend but for some reason i can't get hers....can't send pics from my phone now. i just turned it off so hopefully it will reboot (so to speak) and start functioning like its supposed too. i never turn the thing off...lol

Updated to say....it worked. duh!!!

after that we went to see Mission Impossible. it was pretty good. entertaining. seen one seen them all....the action and effects were pretty cool. ive kinda lost interest in Tom Cruise. i used to like him a lot but ever since he started acting all weird and shit.....he lost me. all that scientology stuff.....what ever. dance in your underwear again and maybe ill listen......lol

another hour and i start working again. its only for an hour and then i can sleep. im going to do some laundry while im waiting and clean my room. i talked to my mom tonight. i wanted to surprise her and visit her this weekend for Mothers DAy but as usual that didn't work out.

so im going to visit her the end of next month instead. lotsa traveling next month....

26 days till 40. 28 more days to Vegas....yeah baby!! can't wait

and if'n you like to send me a b-day card (hint hint)

Jeannine

p.o. box 324

zion il 60099

that would totally make my day!

ok well its time to get back to work.....fun fun!

have a great weekend!!

Its Tuesday!!

2006-05-09T17:11:00.000-05:00

(click the link and add it to your blog!! come join the madness!!)

List three "simple things" that make you really happy:
1) Bingo
2) getting paid on time
3) talking to my mom

List three things that make you really sad:
1) missing mom
2) gas prices
3) being broke

If you could go back in time and tell the 12 year-old you three things, they would be:
1) dont get any credit cards
2) go to college
3)learn how to manage your money

feels like a long week already. i had a pretty productive weekend. i gardened with my friend. that was fun. we have all kinds of veggies planted. so i helped her out with that and paying for it now.....so sore....ugh. but in a way im kinda glad....got me moving.

work has been busy. thats a good thing. saturday after bingo i spent the night at a friends house....she was bored, i didn't want to go home, so we had a good time.

really not to much going on these days. just trying to keep busy. im pissed cuz my boss hasn't approved my timecard when she usually does, and so now i have to wait longer to get my check. that pisses me off more than anything!!!

SHE MESSING WITH MY BINGO SCHEDULE!!! lol

anyway...thats me.

Tuesday Three Day!!

2006-05-02T03:04:00.000-05:00

List three celebrities you'd like to knock upside the head:
1) paris hilton....just because
2) flava flav....needs to really take a good look at himself
3) Tom Cruize.....getting on that last nerve!!

List three material possessions you'd hate to have to live without:
1) my car
2) my cell
3) my computer.....i bet just about everyone says this

List three things you learned from your mother:
1) Peace
2) Love
3) and happiness :o)

well that was fun. now im going to try and sleep....again. its 3 am. i need to be up around 6. i have an all day conference that i need to be awake for. its going to be a long day. this is actaully the second day. monday wasn't too bad. besides the fact that i feel like a stuffed sausage. it must be that time again. i always feel like this around that time. and i hate it.

ok...have a good day!

Random Observations.....

2006-04-30T03:43:00.000-05:00

hello my friend. ive been using the camera on my phone a lot these days and i thought i would share some pic with ya!!

Im still damn cute! does anyone watch the sopranos? do i look like that guy who married tony's sister? the one who used to take care of Junior? i forget his name but i can't help but see his face when i look at that picture. lol

my sofie too!!! this is my new wallpaper on my phone...she was bugging me while i was on the computer....as you might be able to see hording the keyboard wanting my attention. so i too a pic of her. pretty blue eyes...thats my baby!!!

this would be by boss's ride. its red. and actaully belongs to her daughter who is in college now. aint that some shit. its a hummer h2 if you can't tell. i know someone is creamming there pants right about now.....LOL.....cha cha cha chia!! LOL

And this is my friend who cuts my hair. sexy as hell...believe me.....i know...love her to death!! shes actaully become a really great friend and im glad to know her.

and last but not least.....i looked up from my bingo game and noticed this woman in front of me. granted i know i shouldn't be taking pictures of people without them knowing but i just had to show you this. for all you people out there who think im a bingo nut.....check out this two dabbing handy work here. she was going two dabber strong all night. i kid you not. i think she had 6 9-on sheets. (9 games per sheet) i was in aww of this woman.....you should have seen her go. if i could take video on my phone i most certainly would have.

i used to see this one woman acually change colors every time they called a number. she would switch back and forth between 2 dabbers. the strange habits these people pic up. its really funny. just hours of entertainment.

it was a pretty interesting night. i had all my friends with me tonight at bingo. the roomie, maria, and my new bingo buddy/friend becky all came with me tonight and had a blast. becky won big...you go girl!!....and we just had so much fun. they were getting pretty pissed at us for talking and laughing and just having a good time. oh well....

after that was over we all decided to go to the bar by our house, had a few beers and listened to kareokee and just had a really great time. it was nice to be out. im tired as hell now. i had to work tonight till 5am. by 3:30 the calls were very far and few so i logged off. i just can't sit here for nothing when i could be sleeping or in my case this evening.......BLOGGING!!!!

so consider yourself lucky :o)

all i plan on doing tomorrow is sleeping. i might have to stop at marias to add some memory to her computer, but other than that...im vegging all day in bed. i have a two day conference at work and i have to be there by 7am both days. BE THERE by 7, which means waking me up at 530its going to suck big time. the only good coming out of it is free lunch and beverages. which means ill be loaded up on coffee and water and have to pee every five fucking minutes. it will be fun.

ok im falling asleep here. have a great weekend!

Happy Birthday Sarah!!

2006-04-25T01:03:00.000-05:00

Then 16

Now 19

My how they grow!

its hard to believe that shes been with me for 3 years already. sometimes it feels like just yesterday and other times it seems like a lifetime ago. and even through all the bullshit.....i don't regret a single day. Happy Birthday BabyGirl! I love you :o)

So since i don't have much to say and its TuesdayThree!! day, Bonnie started this thing so i thought i would give it a shot!

List three movies you could watch over and over again:
1) Tomb Raider 1 & 2 ( its an angelina thang)
2) Save The Last Dance (which i have seen a billion times already)
3) jeeze there are so many.....

List three things you'd like to do before you die:
1) win the lottery
2) be skinny
3) find love

List three people who have helped influence who you are today:
1) my mom for bringing me into this world
2) my very first girlfriend who taught me a lot about myself
3) and Sarah for giving me something i never thought i would have......a mothers love

ok well im off to bed.

night, night

insert title here

2006-04-19T23:01:00.000-05:00

You have no idea how nice it is to look at the weather and see numbers like.....71, 65, 79, 82.....And know that I will not have to look at one flake of snow for the next several months.

I am a happy camper.

BRING ON THE SUNSHINE!!

ok....So not to much going on here. Seems to be the theme these days. I've actually been busy at work which is a nice change.

its been a week since I've played bingo and that my friends I can honestly say.....SUCKS!!!! Easter ruined me!! OH...By the way...I won another jackpot last week....weeeeeee!!! Go me! I can finally go back tomorrow and have my fun again. LOL....Pretty sad huh.....Hey its something to do and I'm making money in the process!! Sounds good to me....LOL

I've been a little under the weather these past few days. Having coughing fits. Not all the time...But its there. I have a little bit of congestion that I can feel so I'm hoping that I can knock that out before it gets worse.

I am sooo loving the warm weather we have been having. Its been really nice.

I'm actually thinking of growing a small garden of veggies cuz I love me some garden veggies. So I've been thinking about that. Whether is happens or not....Ill let you know.

I hope that my summer will be entertaining and full of things to do. I know my Vegas trip is going to be a blast and CAN NOT WAIT!!! I also know that I will visiting my mom soon and I CAN NOT WAIT!! I miss my mom so much.

sarah's birthday is next Monday. She's going to be 19. Can't believe its been 3 years since she came into my life.

they grow up so fast!! LOL

knock knock....Still there??

ok I'm boring myself here....I wish I can say there was something exciting going on but frankly....Nothing. Not a damn thing. And I'm thinking here people........

I can say that I am a bit lonely. Not having a lover in my life kinda sucks. I miss the intimacy and that feeling of belonging to someone...ya know. But I'm know that she's out there somewhere and when I find her ill be happy.

perhaps when I get my spanking new hairdo which is coming around quite nicely :o)

for now I'm happy just being alive and somewhat stable in my life. I'm happy to have a roof over my head, a job to go too, for the friends that I have and the new ones that I am making.

since I've been home a bit more I've been watching a bit more TV. I never really watch TV much. There is only one show that I look for and that is Greys Anatomy on Sunday and if nothing else holds my attention....Lifetime on Sunday night...Rocks.

I can't get over just how many reality shows there are on TV. And though I'm a sucker for them all...I love me some reality.....Its getting to be a bit....Mundane. I mean....Now that everyone has caught on to the "reality" bug....They all know how to act. Nothing is really "real" anymore cuz they know what the audience wants to see....So they bring it. Drama.

I love the cooking shows. Top chef, celebrity top chef, hells kitchen (they really need to bring that one back), food network host....Those are fun to watch. I've been getting into this other show on discover called Deadliest Catch. Its about fisherman catching Alaskan king crab. Man every time I watch that show and see those crabs I just want to throw one in a pot of boiling water and have at it!! They are HUGE!!! But the show itself is really good showing how they go about catching the crab in really horrendous weather....It caught my attention. But damn it makes me want some crab.

I remember back in the day when I was living in VA my friends and I would get a shitload of softshell crab put some paper on the table with the seasoning and some beer and we would have a blast just ripping through them. That was some good times.

I've been eating a lot of fish lately. LOL

and in case your wondering, after 2am there is nothing but infomercial on TV. NOTHING!!!

just in case you were wondering.

ok that's it for me.

keep smiling!

JACKPOT!!!

2006-04-06T04:56:00.000-05:00

This my friends is what a $500 jackpot winning ticket looks like!!

And i got it ALL BY MYSELF!

B I N G O

you have to know i was just beyond happy when i saw that last number come up. i could barely stand it. i just couldn't believe it. i mean...ive won some nice pots. as a matter of fact i won $100 last week and $250 on a pull tab and a few other good pots here and there...but nothing like this. and not just me. usually i win with 12 other people and end up with $2.oo but thats ok....cuz i won...but this!!! now this is freaking awsome!

im keeping some and putting the rest away (in someone elses hands so i don't touch it) and save it for either vegas or if that for whatever reason (and it better not damit) not happen will be for a car. and ill just add to it. i was thinking putting my winnings in the vegas/car pot whenever i do win....and yes...i did share a little with my neighbor who was very appreciative cuz thats just what you do. i have a new bingo buddy. shes very cool. my age practically to the day, shes crazy too. fun stuff. shes fun and im thinking this will be a growing friendship for sure. she lives around the corner from me too which is nice. shes a lot of fun and were talking about walking or doing some kind of activity so we can keep active. hopefully that will work out. i really need it.

so lets see.....its 5am. ive been up since 3. another sleepless night. i did good last night.....tonight...not so good. i need to get up in an hour anyway so it really doesn't make sense to try now. ill just shower and go to work. ill be there a little early but thats ok. i have a meeting at 9 and ill be gone by noon. then ill sleep. ugh

lets see what else is going on.....not so much. i think im going to watch the latest Sopranos episode....then go to work. sounds like a plan.

have a great day!!!

So THIS is what 7am Feels Like!!!

2006-03-30T08:28:00.000-06:00

well since I really don't know what to do right now as it is 7:30 am and I'm sitting at my desk here at work. I have a meeting at 9 and that is about all that I have to do today. I couldn't sleep for shit last night. I woke up at 2am after only falling asleep around midnight and couldn't fall back asleep.

I watched TV, nothing on. I read some of my book till my eyes hurt, still...not tired. checked email and putz'd around on the internet...still....wide awake!! so I watched the last episode of The L Word that I downloaded (which was really good and I hate Shane right about now which also pisses me off cuz I really loved her character damit and now I'm mad as hell at her.....shithead how could she do that to Carmen!!! UGH....WOMEN!!! UGH!!!!)

anyway....so it was like 530 and the roomie was out of the shower so I just decided to jump in and get ready for work. my alarm was set for 6 so I was due to be up anyway. the cool thing about being here so early is that I can leave early. like at noon!! yeah baby. I love my job. the meeting ends at 10:30 and ill sit here and putz around on the internet and then go home. I got it really good here. let me explain how this works....

as you may or may not know I work for a major insurance company in the home office so I don't actually work the "insurance" part, I'm part of a team which keeps the company in compliance with policies and procedures on a financial level. making sure that systems are working properly, users have access to what they should need and nothing more, financial statements are processed according to policy and basically keeping the employees up to date on compliance practices. you heard about Enron right...well our team makes sure that the higher ups don't make any mistakes so that what happened to Enron doesn't happen to us.

I am a contractor here. I don't work for the company I work for an agency that placed me here. I've been here for a year now and so basically when the team doesn't need me anymore I move on to another dept. which I like and is fun. I've been in this dept just short of a year now. the agency works exclusively for the company (which is huge) so there is always someplace for me to go. which is nice.

my actual job, my function here....I really have no idea. since I started this position my main purpose was/is keeping the documents on the team share drive up to standard and taking notes at meetings. well the share drive is up to date and has been for a long time now and meetings are once a week (Thursday) every once in a while there will be another here and there but that's about it. and I'd say maybe once a month if that....the team leader (who approves my timecard) will throw something meaningless at me like print documents and make a book for a conference she need to attend...kinda thing...but that doesn't happen very often. oh..also every quarter when we have our 3 day conference....I'm in charge of getting that all set up (every 3 months) and basically for the rest of the day I surf the net. on Fridays I run a report that takes about an hour to do. so if you were to calculate all that in a weeks time.....I do actual work about 4 hours a week.

now here is the kicker. my team lead, who approves my timecard, I never see. she's never in. she never sees me except on Thursdays. when she's out.....I'm not needed. now ask me how much she's out....LOL....most of the week. I typically come to work 2-3 days a week. but I get paid for a full week/40 hours.

I know you hate me right about now.

now I'm not complaining at all. I love it and I'm certainly going to miss it when it ends....if it ever does. she keeps threatening that the work is going to come.....lol....I'm still waiting. she's been saying that since I started working with her. its nice to have that flexibility. I never have to sit in traffic, I don't have to wake up really early....I do wish I had a clue as to what they do cuz sometimes listening to them talk I'm like.....HUH??? some things make sense...but some other times....omg.....its like another language.

anyway...I thought you might like to know since I'm sitting here now and I have an hour till my meeting starts and I have not a thing to do since I surfed all night.....lol

I think I'm going to get some coffee and maybe something to eat.....ill be back!

ok that didn't take long. instead of coffee I opted for yogurt with granola and a bottle of water. I've been trying to get back to eating healthy again. its been really hard and I'm not doing so well in that dept....but that's another entry....for another time.

mmm love yogurt and granola. I'm going to go see if I won a shopping spree....brb....

nope...didn't win...ah well

ok well I think I've bored you enough. I need to get prepared for the meeting now anyway. print documents I need, figure out where its at...all that good stuff. so you all have a wonderful day and ill chat with ya soon!

speaking of chat...if you have yahoo messenger and you want to chat....add me to your list. my screen is gems4fun

on AIM I'm jeanninehugs

add me and lets chat. I'm on mostly at night especially on the weekends...I get so bored when I'm working in during the night when it slows down.....would love the company!

65 degrees today!!! woo hoooo get out and enjoy the sun!!!

Then and Now

2006-03-29T15:33:00.000-06:00

I'm watching tv one night and this commercial comes on for this radio station called The Drive comes on. its a fairly new station maybe out about a year now and plays all the old classic rock from the 70's and 80's, songs i grew up with. i made a mental note to remember the station so that i can check it out in the morning to see what they were about. so the next morning i get in my car and i go to the station and all im hearing are commercials so i programmed it and waited for the car to warm up. in the back of my mind im jonesing to hear my regular station cuz the morning crew is hysterical and all im hearing now are commercials so i went back to my routine. that was yesterday.

today on my way home i remembered the station and i went to it and again...commercials but only one this time and it went right into Billy Joels, Piano Man.

its amazing how much music influences our lives. I was immediately brought to tears which really isn't a big surprise since i cry at just about anything which really pisses me off God I HATE IT!! - but anyway...i was chocking back the tears.

first it was Billy Joel, then it was Bob Dylan...who reminded me of my parents back in the day (the 70's..eeek) which brought me to memories of camping which almost always brings me to this one night when me, my sister, and my two best friends, Bella and Doreen are going to the camper, it was dark, everyone was at the campfire and of course we were too cool to sit there so as we headed into the camper the first words out of my mouth was...(and i know my sister is hysterical right about now cuz she knows whats coming) but out of my 16 yr old mouth comes..." mom's not here lets pig out" and we all laugh and ho rah, etc.....

it was dark and were camping so as were lighting the lanterns much to my surprise.....theres mom. now awake and not very happy......i can laugh about it now but back then....i can tell you it was no joke. i was probably grounded to the tent im not really sure...but i know it couldn't have been good.

then im starting to hear Pink Floyd, Led Zepplin, Boston, Elton John....which brings me to 19 when life sucked, i hated my parents (i thought) i hated living under "there rules" i avoided being home by working 3 jobs and my friends where everything to me. i was barely home. i had a 9 to 5, a 6-9 and on weekends i worked at the poolhall. my best friend Dyanna and i filled up all the hours in between doing whatever we could to fill the time. we had boyfriends, our stomping ground was the poolhall. we drank, we got high, we did everything together. it was 4 years of my life with her and my other friends from work hanging out at the church parking lot drinking and listening to this music. it was Jim and I, Dyanna and Bobby, Dave and Michelle. we did everything toghether. going to the rock club to hang out or us girls would go dancing at the Green Parrot till all hours of the night.

Led Zepplin always reminds me of Dave. He was the greatest guy ever and one of my best guy friends and he loved LZ. made me a huge fan. i always remember him when i here there songs and remember night hanging out at his house all night drinking, smoking, playing pool, he was crazy and always had something going on. all those nights hanging out at the park watching the cars go by. "crusin"...when it was ok to hang out in the street and not have to worry about drive-bys....we'd be sitting in the car and Stairway to Heaven would come on and we all would sing and play our air guitar and just have the best time. i always wondered what ever happened to them.

i remember the day i moved out of my house and into my first place. it was a room i rented for $50 a week. shortly thereafter i moved into the basement for and extra $25 a month. it was cool at the time. i was on my own. my mom and i weren't getting along and it was the right thing to do. i didn't really have much of a choice. it was rough time between us. fighting all the time. it was bad. moving helped our relationship temendously. tough love.

its so ironic how 20 years later im in the same place only this time im the mom. and though things are as good as they are going to be, still....i can now see how much pain i must have put my mom through when i was at that age. how many times ive said to myself...."i will never treat my kids that way!! i will be different." LOL....yeah right....i hear my mom everytime i open my mouth......its not funny...but it is.

Now...i look at my life and im greatful for the experience. Im glad that i have the opportunity to have that unconditional love and i know i do have it. its a great feeling. as much as it hurts at times you know its always there. and even though she is not technically my flesh and blood....i love her like my own. and i always will. and im greatful for that. and i also know that one day when she is all grown up and on her own and dealing with her own kids.....she will be thinking the same thing. and hopefully i will be around to get that call that i have made so many times to my mom telling her how sorry i was for being a rotten kid and how much i love her and realize now.....she was right.

so much influence music has on your life. 20 years of memories that each song holds.

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not really to much going on here. i look foward to wednesday night bingo. its about all i do now. i could play every night if i could afford it but i can't so i don't ...twice a week is enough. but its good to know its there if i need too get out. there really isn't much going on. Sunday made my 7 year anniversary here in Illinois. 7 years. and ive run out of things to do. i think im getting that itch. time to move on.

Im going to Vegas in June to visit Maggie for our birthdays!!! im excited. i can't wait. just waiting for the fare to go down and my mom might even come too. that would be awsome!! im really looking forward to seeing my friend and mom if she goes....though i think ill be making a trip to see mom anyway.....but since our birthdays are a day apart we decided to celebrate together and i think that would be the best birthday i have had in a very long time. especially since this is the big 4 0!!! celebrating 40 in Vegas....YEAH BABY!!! what can possibly top that!!

work is still there. im bored to tears there but im not complaining.

its FINALLY starting to warm up. thank you Jesus!! im looking foward to spring/summer....looking forward to seeing green again. ive been wanting to plant a garden but i don't know. we have dogs....they will trample and i don't want to start something i won't finish. i don't know. we'll see.

well i think that its for me. i need to shower and get ready. im so glad to be getting out of the house tonight. i think i would have gone crazy if i spend one more night at home. this town really needs to add some things to do.....im going to look into some summer activities. join leagues, get involved....DO SOMETHING!!! ok...thats it...

have a good one!!

Ramblings.....

2006-03-18T05:31:00.000-06:00

you know...ive been sitting here for almost 6 hours now doing the work at home thing and i think i maybe took 10 calls. pisses me off. its supposed to be busy damit. ah well such is life. can't win them all i guess. i hate it when its slow....anyway....ive been also thinking a lot about what to say in this here journal since i haven't updated in a while and im trying to think of what is new and there really isn't anything to really talk about.....until now....

i just took an order for this gentleman who just bought a Gold Coin. now i understand being a collector and all but this man just paid $1,711.96 on this here gold coin. Seventeen hundred dollars. on a coin. something that is going to sit in a box im sure. thats a downpayment on a car...on anything really. something you can live in or drive....not sit in a fucking box!!!!!!!

but thats just me.

ive been talking to my friend Maggie for most of the night in chat and that was fun. she was drinking wine....then beer.....was on cam.....gotta love her!! im planning a trip to visit her in vegas next month. make a long weekend out of it. i need to get away and i haven't seem my friend in a long time.

and yes mom...im coming to see you too.....AND I MIGHT NEVER LEAVE!!!!! heh

i found out today that my brother is going back to iraq in october. not very happy about that.

so my car was acting up again. AMP light was going on so i was thinking the battery was going.....no...couln't be that easy. my altenator crapped out on me. another $300 bucks.

vegas is looking better and better......

me....im doing pretty good. can't really complain much. nothing worth complaining about....just taking it day by day and taking in what life throws my way....its all good in the hood...lol

oh...i am very excited that The Sopranos are back on. when i was with Renny she and i watched the sopranos from the beginning since ive never seen it and she loved it....so we watched it and now im hooked......the L Word is totally blowing me away......and my new favorite tv show is Greys Anatomy. OMG...LOVE IT!!!

have a great weekend folks
keep smiling!!
hugs, jeannine

Bad Credit, No Credit, Drunk!!....hmm...Lets buy a New TV!!!

2006-03-05T05:45:00.000-06:00

Have you all met my new friend Chastity? Yeah....shes my new friend. I love her so much I'm stealing her hair. Yep...thats going to be the new doo. I need something different. I love my haircut....but its just not cute anymore. i need something a little different. and this is very close to what i have now (which is practically nothing) only with a little style...and well...more hair. I think it will be fun for the summer.

anyway...just wanted to share that with ya'll

so what is it with these people who KNOW they don't have any kind of credit never mind any GOOD credit make them think that applying for instant credit to get a monster tv or supped up computer system is going to miraclously give them any kind of credit at all!!!!!

i can usually tell right off the bat. they are usually drunk dialing. they see this gi-normus monster tv and they pick up the phone. slurring...i want this tv. drunk off there ass but coherent enough to hear that there is a deffered payment option where they don't have to pay for it for a whole year.....i can hear the tones now......

of course that only applies to company's credit card which drunk ass bob doesn't have and wants to get instant credit.

now you would think i would be happy about this. i get paid by the minute no matter what. so drunk ass bob can talk all he wants....i still get paid. but there comes a time when you've been sitting for 4 hours in the same spot, the calls are coming in back to back, you haven't even had the chance to freshen up your coffee which by now is so close to making its exit you can barely see straight..........and he calls.

he wants this tv

he wants instant credit

can barely say his name

after every sentence comes a story about his life

takes an hour to get an address

he can't see the lights are off

same questions over and over

to get declined.

shocking.......

45 minutes later........i still get paid....

i was finally able to get to the bathroom. i just had to make myself busy which i should have done hours ago. it finally slowed down some. calls were coming in like crazy....

anyway.....that was all i really had to say. nothing new. i can't believe its march already. 3 months to 40.

its 6 am now. i need to go to bed.

night night

Ho Hum

2006-02-23T21:28:00.000-06:00

kinda quiet around these here parts. nothing to new to report.

renny is gone.....she left today and is on her way back home to TX.
very sad.

work is getting boring and im home more than i am there. (but still getting paid....dumbasses)

im still fat.

lol

now back to my boring little life.......

Insomnia

2006-02-01T04:30:00.000-06:00

well i can't sleep. no...let me refraise that.....i can't sleep at night when i should be sleeping. even when i go to bed at a normal hour....10-11pm....i wake up around 2'ish...and im up the rest of the night. its now 4:30am ive been sitting here for the last hour after tossing and turning trying to go back to sleep, i gave up. this is really starting to piss me off.

i really dont have much to say. there really isn't much going on. work is good. its there. my mind is blank right now. lol

im going back to weight watchers again. now that i dont' have the 2nd job and i can go back to my thursday night meetings which im really happy about. ive gained so much weight.

this pisses me off too.

ok well there you have it. aren't you glad you took the time to stop by....LOL

have a good day!

Remember Me???

2006-01-27T01:19:00.000-06:00

LOVE THE CHIN YOUR IN!!

well howdy folks. Me again....Just thought I would pop in to see what's going on. Nothing to exciting happening in my world. I did quit my second job at the Cellular place though. As you can see by the pic.....I was real busy that day. LOL actually it was a nice place to work but it was effecting my other job and I wasn't about to lose that one.....So therefore I had to let it go. Way to much brain power for me.

so that's the latest pic. Taken on my new camera phone...LOL. Yeah....Sarah and I went on a family plan so I now have a cell phone. Its very cool and I love my new toy. There is always something to do on it...LOL

so lets see...What been happening.

work is good. Still there.

still seeing Renny. Pretty much exclusively. LOL I guess you can say were a couple. I'm not really sure. We've established that we like each other very much and she's the only one I go out with and I'm pretty sure I'm the only one she sees...Since we see eachother quite often and are in some sort of communication when we don't. Lets just say it hasn't been officially established that we are. We meet for coffee mostly at IHOP and just rip on the patrons.....They are a funky bunch after a certain hour....LOL. Makes for good conversation. Not that were lacking by any means in that dept....But nonetheless.....Its entertainment at its best folks. But yeah....Its all good in the hood. Ill be spending the weekend at her place.....Woo hoooo!!! If its a rockin....Don't come a knockin.....LOL...I crack myself up....Sorry.....LOL

things at home are going good. Sarah and I are doing really great. She even got a job!! I'm really happy for her. She's been doing really well, going to school and being more responsible and more understanding. She also got rid of that girl which was a great step in her favor. I know she will find someone so much better for her. Someone to treat her with respect like she should be treated.

ok well I just re-read my last entry and basically repeated myself here...LOL...Yeah I'm doing good. LOL

I don't' feel like I'm in that slump anymore. Maybe a little but not like a couple of weeks ago. I'm feeling better now that I don't have that second job. I'm also getting away this weekend for a couple of days....To renny's. That will be nice. A friend of mine is moving and so she sold all her stuff.....I scored some major items!! A bedroom set (2 dressers, mirror, 2 nightstands), a 27" TV, vcr, stereo, microwave oven, coffee pot (automatic) all for $300. She also cleaned out her cabinets and gave me all her food, and some odds and ends she through in. I'm gonna miss her though. She's my bingo buddy.

speaking of bingo...I won $75 last weekend!! Yeah baby

so Sarah now has a place to put all her clothes!!

the roomie bought her 2 Italian leather black sofa's for a great price too. They are sooo freaking nice. If I had the space I would have taken them myself. But they look really good upstairs. And comfy too!!

hmmm lets see......It snowed like a mutha last weekend. I have pics on my flickr...Go check it out. Well that's all for now. I'm going to bed and try and sleep. I haven't been doing so well these last few days in that dept. Hopefully tonight will be different. Altogether its already 2am and I'm not really tired. As usual.

ciao fer now!!!

Random Thoughts.....

2006-01-18T15:04:00.000-06:00

I seem to find myself in a slump again. its so strange how it happens....so gradual. day by day it gets worse and worse and I know its happening but I fail to stop it. I'm thinking that maybe this 2 job thing is not working for me. or maybe that's the slump talking. I know I need to get more sleep. as much as try to get to bed early it never happens and when I do I get woken up so I don't even bother anymore. then trying to get up early. omg I hate it. is this me turning 40?? I struggle so much with myself its almost amusing. anyway....I'm not going to complain today. maybe tomorrow....lol

so I finally got a cell phone. Sarah and I went on a family plan and it works out better for us both. hey did I tell you that she got a job!! way to go!! yeah...she's working for a local pet store as a grooming assistant. perfect job if you ask me....she is around animals all day. its perfect. she's still going to school and this time is doing much better about going. oh..and the girlfriend is gone. (thank the lord...ugh) she's doing so much better now. I'm so proud of her.

so work is good. the day job has been kinda slow these past few weeks but is starting to pick up again. that's good. the 2nd job I'm getting there I guess. I'm starting to think that its not for me. and I don't know if its because I'm dumb or if its because I just don't want to have to think that hard in a 2nd job. there is so much detail to remember.....SO MUCH!!!.....I'm not kidding or exaggerating.....I watch these kids (literally) spew out this stuff like its nothing and here I am stumbling. granted they have been doing this a lot longer than I have, but still....when I was in search for extra income, I wasn't' looking to strain my brain. I do enough of that during the day.....I was thinking of more like a "would you like some fries with that" kinda job. a no brainer....something along the lines of simple. now don't' get me wrong. I love a challenge....but for this...I'm just not feeling it. I find that I have a headache every time I go work. cuz I'm straining my brain to remember every freaking detail about all the plans and phones and options and features and how to solve problems. its really a lot harder than it looks. then again...maybe I'm just dumb. lol

hmmm.....social life is picking up. still seeing Renny. were definitely taking things very slow which is fine with both of us. were not in any hurry, but enjoy each others company when we go out. she's funny as hell and I got her to start her own blog....its linked up there on the right if you want to check it out.

I bought this salad for lunch today. it was a ready made salad that I used to get all the time.....which usually came with dressing except today...there was no dressing. so I ate a dry salad for lunch today and it was yucky. I just picked through it and dumped the rest. so disappointing.....

I need to get my shit together. along with this slump I'm in comes weight gain. completely out of control......AGAIN!! Jesus. will this cycle ever end. someone just beat me in the head already.......I just don't' get it. I know..its my doing...only I can change it...I know I know.....
January is already almost over. 40 is approaching mighty quickly. Renny asked me the other night how I really felt about it. good question. I mean...right now it doesn't' bother me to much. I'm sure as I get closer to it I will start to freak out a little. but then on the other hand I keep remember that Oprah show when she turned 40 and they talked about how wonderful it is and how life begins at 40. I sure hope so. but I'm sure if I had millions in the bank and someone to cook and clean for me I would be happy too. I always thought it would be different though. I know that I made my own choices and my life is what it is today by my own doing...but I always thought that by this time, I would have been more settled in my life. with the house, 2 cars, vacations every year, career job, money in the bank, you know....equity.

I don't have any of that. I live in a basement and my car is 1 bolt away from falling apart and I've got less than $100 to my name (and that's only because I just got paid yesterday....that is what's left...lol)

maybe this will be the year where I get my shit together. I definitely see a new car in my very near future.....perhaps by the end of the year I will have cleared up my bad credit and get enough money saved to have that house......or something I can call my own.

let me end this by saying that I am truly grateful for everything that I do have....my family, my friends, my home, my life, Sarah, everything. I didn't' want this to come off as me feeling sorry for myself, cuz that is not the case. I am Blessed. and I am happy. just thinking about the "what if's"

Have a great day!!

Little Denise

2006-01-11T11:34:00.000-06:00

Coffee of the Day: caramel Mochiata

I used to work with Denise at Walmart. She was this little 5 foot tall GIANT of a lady in her late 40's ( I think) who you could never sit still. You had to chase her down to ask her a question. We were CSM's at walmart. Customer Service Managers if you didn't' know.....The red jackets. There was a group of us and we all got along great. Still to this day I see them and hang out with them and just have the best time. Denise didn't always go with us as she is the one married with kids. She always laughed, always had a smile...I don't think I've ever seen her really mad at anyone.....And even if she was bothered by something...She would tell you...For sure....But then it was like no big deal. She'll tell it like it.

You would never know it, but this GIANT of a woman had colon cancer. She's been through 3 surgeries, fought the battle and won, then it came back, had two more surgeries, kemo again.....And still.....You would never know it. Always had a smile or a laugh.....Always hopefull.

I found out recently that the cancer had spread to her brain and on Monday morning she died in her sleep.

she was such a great person to know and I'm so grateful to have known her. She was a great friend, a great co-worker, just a wonderful being of light. And it sucks that this disease that she fought so hard to conquer.....Won the battle.

you might have remembered me talking about her in past postings. I did a lot of fund raising for her at walmart. I'm gonna miss her. The wake is tomorrow.

Rest in Peace my friend......

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so I'm at work now. I have no energy at all to be here. I have this toothache from hell. I'm tired I feel like a cow and all I want to do is go home and sleep.

maybe this 2 job thing is not working for me. I don't know. I like the second job, but I'm not sure if I have it in me to do it. I honestly don't know if I will ever get it. There is just so much to remember. I feel like the grandmother of the place. Everyone there is 23 and under. Seriously. I don't know. I might have to rethink this.

I've been eating way to much lately. And I feel it. There will be a feedbag entry soon on that.
well I guess I should get back to work. Maybe ill update this later on again......

Back To Work...

2006-01-03T13:09:00.000-06:00

ahhh.... another slow week for me for sure. I observed this morning the people who I work with. you have to understand....I am in corporate world now. the company is HUGE. the office is HUGE....there are thousands of people here. last week.....3 showed up. myself included. this week....were back to parking in Idaho. but that's ok cuz I found a close spot today....go me!! sometimes you just have to plan it just right. and apparently I did. so anyway...I'm walking through the halls....strolling more like.....and I'm checking out the clientele. I like to watch people. I also make a habit of talking to them too because I know that I make everyone uncomfortable being fat AND gay.....oooo watch out for her.....LOL. I am sooo not corporate.
anyway...I make a point to at least say good morning to everyone in passing. I'm not obnoxious about it...just being nice. ya know. well I was passing this woman this morning and I say good morning. she looked a little tired. it was 10 am. she was holding her starbucks but obviously not had her first sip yet as she grumbled as she passed me. LOL.... just cracked me up. 2 other men passed, I say GM and they looked out the window like I was invisible......heh.....love it. I also observed the clienteles attire. everyone in there "business casual" outfits which consist of slacks and a button down shirt/tie, ladies in there business suites and/or slacks with a sweater. hair nice a purdy. they all look the same.
and here I come with my spiked hair, black jeans (god forbid I wear blue on any other day but Friday), a polo and my hoodie. I have my "business attire" bag over my shoulder wearing comfortable shoes. I never wear my badge either. such a rebel.
speaking of my hair.....I seem to have made the right decision on this cut. it seems that this is a good look for me!! I've received many compliments from friends and strangers in the street about my hair. Finally I did something right!! lol
so they have been building a starbucks in my building across from the cafeteria and today was its grand opening.......I completely by-passed the food and went right for coffee and I think I'm in love. starbucks is my best friend and after 10 cups I get one free!!! wooo hooooo!!!!
I need a calendar for my desk.
it is like 50 degrees outside. its dreary...but its nice. its been raining the last 2 days on and off. there is no snow left on the ground and it was strange to see the grass. its been so long. it would be nice if it would just stay like this ill April and then the sun can come out again......just don't snow, and don't get cold. is that to much to ask???
I've been getting to know one of my readers these last few days.....she's so cool!! :o) I think we will be become great friends......
its nice to have a purpose in life. I feel like life will be getting better. rejuvenated. maybe its because I'm working more, making more money, maybe its because I have a potential love interest, maybe cuz I'm going to be 40 this year and they say that 40 is when you life truly begins......perhaps its all the great friends I'm making and people I'm meeting. I don't know what it is.....but it feels good. I hope it sticks around. these last 5 months have been hell and finally I'm able to smile again. I know I keep saying this...but I can truly see new beginnings.
ok well I guess that's it for me. I could write all day long since I have nothing else to do.....but I won't subject you to that. I am going to update the feedbag so you can check that out too. its not going to be much. just a start.
have a great day!!!

Howdy Folks!

2006-01-02T16:51:00.000-06:00

ok, so I'm a day late...Ah well. I actually tried to write an entry yesterday but I wasn't able to get in here...Kept freezing on me. So here I am....

My New Year celebration was ok. Didn't do much. I did go to bingo. Didn't win anything...But it was fun all the same. Afterwards my bingo buddy invited me to her place. She was the landlord the the apartment complex that I used to live in so I wasn't far from home. She made this nacho dip thing that was pretty good and she opened a bottle of champange. I had 2 glasses, it was midnight.......And about 10 min later I went home. I did have to work...So I really couldn't stay long anyway. Sarah went to a party in Chicago with her friends and she had a great time. She stayed there overnight so I was glad about that. Really didn't' want her driving around with all the drunks on the street and then she can do what she wants without having to worry about driving. So all in all it was pretty good.

the roomies went away this weekend so it was kinda quiet here. I've had off from work since Thursday and I'm looking forward to getting back to work. Even though this week will be much of the same. Boss still on vacation. vacation = not much to do for jeannine. Its all good.

so I've been working on the goals. Sarah and I spent the last two days gutting this place out. Closets, junk draws/cabinets, clothes...We have 4 bags to go to salvation army. Just basically pulled everything out and reorganized. There is still some to do but the bulk of it is done, which is nice. Were talking about re-painting. I'm liking our ideas. Could be interesting. I'm not looking forward to moving all the damn furniture...But ah well. I need the exercise...LOL

I haven't bought a pack a cigarettes since 12/21 but I have had about 4 since then. And only recently. So that is much better. I would rather have one every couple of days if needed....I enjoy it much more then. I really don't want to be a "smoker"...But I do enjoy the occasional one. Especially when having a cocktail. (or 12)

I'm going to make myself a chart (or get one of those freebie calendars from walmart) and chart my exercise. Keep a record of it to keep me on track. I will be doing it tonight. At some point. LOL

it seems that my last goal is in effect. Its not love but I seem to have caught someone's attention. We've been chatting online and we had met for breakfast one morning then dinner the next day and movies that night....Friendship has definitely been accomplished. We just clicked. Then she went to TX to visit her family for the holidays and have been talking each day. Which was nice. At first I really didn't think past the friendship level. In the chat room we play around like were "luvahs" but it was all fun in games.....Besides.....She's got a girlfriend. So I was happy to have found a friend doesn't live in another state, who likes to hang out and doesn't' mind the drive....(she lives just under an hour away) is not that far to drive too....Has her own place that I can get away too if need be.....It was all good.

so were talking one night and I was asking her about her relationship to find out it wasn't really a relationship, too long a story to tell here......But that she liked me a lot and would like to take it to the next level. I was pretty surprised. In a good way. So she comes back on Wednesday and we meet for dinner and I guess we'll see what happens. So goal #10 in progress.....LOL

I'm kind looking forward to 2006. I'm hoping for a lot of new beginnings. I'm hoping for change and I'm really hoping to achieve my goals. I really want to make this happen. I really want to lose the weight, save the money, get my finances under control, get my life in order.

here's to new beginnings!
Love & Hugs, Jeannine

So This Is Christmas......

2005-12-25T13:36:00.000-06:00

Just wanted to wish you all a very Merry Christmas and a Happy Happy New Year!! May this year bring you lots of joy and love everyday with your friends, family & loved ones. May this new bring you lots of new entries that make you smile!! lol

Well its pretty quiet around here. i finally got out of bed around noon. went upstairs to do the gift exchange. I got the Mr. & Mrs. Smith DVD (Angelina of course) and some lotto tickets. you know that i will be watching this all day long over and over since im not going anywhere that i know of. my plan is spring clean. how much im actually going to get done...i don't know. i have today and tomorrow off. we'll see. time to get rid of the crap.

ok well i need to run. i hope everyone is having a wonderful holiday and i will catch you in the new year!!

Merry Christmas!!
Happy Holidays!!
Happy Sunday!! (for those who don't celebrate)

My Goals For 2006

2005-12-22T14:49:00.000-06:00

Seems like every year I have a plan. “This time I’m going to stick to it!” I always say. Well this year is no different! I'm making goals and THIS TIME I'm going to work really hard to stick to them and not stray. For me. I will do this for ME.

1. Get back on track with weight watchers and stick to it. I want to reach my goal weight of 1’something by June. Even if it is 199.

2. Alone with #1, I will commit to some form of exercise at least once a day. I truly have no excuse for this. My exercise “routine” consists of a 10 min workout. There is just no excuse in the world why I can’t do this 10 min. I also have the opportunity to walk in my building at work. The building is a square and I see groups of women mostly walking briskly down the halls (they are very long. I would even say it would about a half mile…. It’s huge) at lunch time, so there is no reason why I can’t get into that mix or just do it on my own.

3. Buy a better car

4. Put away at least 10-20 dollars a week in savings AND NOT TOUCH IT!! Give it to someone if I have too…whatever it takes.

5. Pay my mom back. She’s been so great about this loan and I truly appreciate it and feel really horrible on my commitment to paying her back…but this year I will do so.

6. Pay by my other loan before they take my car away. This should actually be #1.

7. Not take advantage of my flexibility in my day job and get to work when I should be there…

8. Get my place organized better. Maybe a new coat of paint. Different colors. Something new. I would love to get new furniture, but I really don’t see that happening unless I see it at a garage sale REAL cheap!!

9. Quit smoking – shudap!!

10 And finally…. stop looking for love and just let it find me. Continue to make great friends and have fun.

So there are you top 10 goals for 2006. Reasonable…I would say so. Do-able…most definitely. I didn’t’ want to get crazy with this list, I just wanted to be more realistic in my goals and I think I have accomplished that.

Well I think that I'm going to actually do my report that needs to be done tomorrow as I have all the information that I need and take tomorrow off to have a lovely 4 day weekend!! YEAH BABY!!

Well in the invent that I do not update until next year…. I want to wish you all a very Merry Christmas and a blessed New Year. I do hope that all your dreams and wishes come true and that you spread that love to your family and friends.

MERRY CHRISTMAS, HAPPY HOLIDAYS, HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

Hugs, Jeannine

brrr...

2005-12-19T17:21:00.000-06:00

Its to damn cold outside. Now I don't mind cold weather....40's, 50's, but below zero....I can do without. To damn cold. Makes me hurt. brrr

hmmm.....I wish I can say my life has been so freaking exciting and I just have TONS to tell you about...But the fact is...I don't. Some things have been going on but not really all that exciting.

Sarah left for TX on Sunday to visit with her family for the holidays. She'll be gone for a week and a half and its kinda nice. kinda nice not to have to worry about her for a while. cuz when she's here (which she never is) I worry. Its peaceful, I come home without knots in my stomach wondering what I'm going to come home too.....I'm actually bored and I don't mind. I do miss her though. But even when she is here...she's never home. Ever.

the new job is going ok. I finished a week of training last week and Saturday was my first day on the floor. Basically just shadowing the store manager (who is 19 BTW....Ugh) watching her and she was teaching me as well. I did do some transactions but when it came to actually selling a phone....I just observed. I'm not really sure about this job. I'm giving it a month......If by the end of January I still don't get it...I'm going to have to leave it. There is so much technical stuff and so so many steps to actually giving someone service....That I'm not sure I can handle it by myself. Well let me rephrase that....I'm not sure I want to HAVE to handle it by myself. When I ventured out to make some extra money...I was thinking a no brainer kinda job. I think enough in my day job....I don't want to have to think that much in a part time. Make sense? This job requires a whole lot of thinking that my already tired brain might not be able to handle. So we'll see.

I met this woman over the weekend who I swear is like my double. We are so much alike in so many ways that I know we are going to be great friends. We hung out all weekend and had a blast. And NO...This is not a "potential"...she's already "married" and they have a child together. Anyway....It was great to meet her over the weekend and hang out.

I can't find my damn nail clippers. argh!!

so the holidays are creeping up and I have yet to buy anyone anything and honestly I really don't think I will either. I'm thinking gift cards. I'm telling you people.....I'm just not in the mood this year. Not one little bit. I hope that by next year I will be more in the spirit...But right now, the sooner it is over the better.

its probably because I'm going to be alone. Well I don't have to be, I do have friends.....But like....My mom is missing, Sarah is missing, my new friend is going to be away, so she's missing.....The house is going to be quiet....There just isn't much going on. No bingo either....Sucks.

ba-humbug

Let it (STOP) Snow!!

2005-12-09T14:32:00.000-06:00

so there is a nice shot our backyard. you can click on the pic for the full screen shot. see my wonderful shoveling job.....ain't it purdy!! thats my car way back there. i shoveled a path to the gate then the entire back section there for my car and sarah's car. shes not home obviously. she spent the night at her friends house in chicago and told her not to come home cuz it was really bad last night as you can see. its much better today. the roads are clear. did you hear about that plane that couldn't land and ended up in the streets???? scary. its bad enough trying to drive in the snow, but then to have a plane coming at you where PLANES should not be!!! i can't even imagine.

so there really isn't to much going on here. i start my part time job on monday. i went in today to fill out the paperwork and stuff....and im really looking forward to getting started. i even got paid for an hour today!! im liking this job...lol i didn't even try to go to work today. from what i heard i made the right decision. the roads were still bad this morning and my tires are practically bald....really need to get that done. soon! so i decided to stay home. my appt was at 11 this morning so it really didnt' make sence to try.

hmmm....other than that....i have nothing new to talk about. oh...my nights of bingo are most likely gone now. thats pretty sad. im going tomorrow night and that will most likely be my last night for a while. so sad.......well at least ill be busy working. thats a plus.

ok...well im going to end this dribble now. im boring myself to tears here. thank you to those who responded to why i love you entry.....that was fun.

and for those who didn't respond...i still love ya!!! :o)

have a great weekend!!!
Hugs, jeannine

Why I Love You

2005-12-08T11:22:00.000-06:00

Reply to this post and I'll tell you the reason why I Like/Love/Adore you. Then put this in your own journal and spread the love!!!

We could all use a pick me up every now and then

Love & hugs, Jeannine

YES!!!!

2005-12-01T15:43:00.000-06:00

I GOT THE JOB!! I GOT THE JOB!! I GOT THE JOB!!

im so excited. thats all i wanted to say.....LOL

have a great day!!

Just a Quicky

2005-11-30T14:46:00.000-06:00

wow two days in a row....Don't all clap at once now...LOL

well this is probably going to be short and sweet....Just wanted to update on a few things.
I just called the cell phone place and I quote:

"we received your background check and every thing is looking really good for you"
then she said something else about her boss that I can't recall at this moment since all I heard was the statement above......And then repeated...."Looking really good for you"

ok...Can I get my hopes up now....LOL

this would be such a blessing for me. So keep your FINGERS (I know your laughing....(private joke folks) crossed!!

everyone is getting sick. I know my time is coming.

you know what I noticed today when I was in the bathroom? I bet you want to know real bad huh....LOL

I noticed that when I get the TP I fold it up nice and neat. So hears my question for you folks out there in web land.....

Are you a crumpler or a folder??

inquiring minds want to know!

have a great day!

26 days till Christmas

2005-11-29T14:34:00.000-06:00

well as usual its been pretty quiet around these parts. there have been some things going on, being it a holiday week last week. I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving or holiday, which ever is appropriate for you...lol

I went to celebrate the day with my friend Stephanie and her family. She's also my hairdresser I know I've mentioned her before. her sister was cooking and they were really nice to include us in the festivities. it was a blast. Sarah never made it. couldn't find the house but she spent the day visiting friends and had her own thanksgiving. I feel kinda bad that I didn't cook for her. she said she didn't really eat much cuz by the time she got there the food was pretty much gone. she did eat my leftovers though.

there were like 30 people at the house. kids included. she has a huge family. we talked, we laughed, we ate, played games, I sat and watched them plan out there "black Friday" day of shopping thinking the whole time....THEY ARE CRAZY!!! talking about leaving at 4am! there was no way I was going to partake in that venture. this is the first time in 3 years that I actually had a 4 day weekend. I didn't' have to work the holidays. I'm not dragging my ass in exhaustion from working day and night...(I'm not getting paid all that good overtime either, but that's ok) I'm not stressed out about my dept and how I'm going to handle blitz day.....and from what I heard.....they made some changes and they didn't staff the dept the way they should have and I can only imagine the look on all the customers face when they found out that they couldn't put the sale stuff on layaway.,...oooo weee to be a fly on the wall that day!! that I would have woke my ass up for....but I didn't. didn't want to be bothered with all the madness to save a few bucks. it will go on sale again.....besides...I don't' have money like that. Christmas is going to be very slim pickings for me, sorry to say. unless I hit some big time lottery or the jackpot at bingo....it ain't happening.

I was talking to a friend of mine about Christmas and the holiday in general and how every year it gets worse and worse. its all about the gift these days. the bigger the better. everyone forgot what the season is about, what it symbolizes.....its all commercialized and every year it gets worse. I don't even like putting up a tree, I've become so bahumbug about it. although I'm sure if I had my own house it would be different...and yes I could decorate my space....but for what? there's a tree upstairs I can look at if I need too. honestly, I can't till its all over. and I can start the new year off and hope for a better year.

so I've been looking for a part time job. evenings and weekends type of deal or seasonal for the holiday. I had an interview last week with a cell phone company and I'm hoping that it comes through for me. the craziest thing happened during the interview that has never happened before.

the woman who interviewed me was gay. we got to talking about everything under the sun. her divorce, her kids, her breakup with her partner of 5 years. my dating, her dating, all that. then the interview questions came and I feel like a total ass but for her it was humbling.....
she asked me what my biggest accomplishments were and as I was saying "I actually have 2" the tears started flowing and I couldn't talk....lol I got all choked up. my accomplishments being Sarah cuz I am proud of my self and of her for all our accomplishments and my weight loss......I felt like such a dork. she was very humbled by the whole thing. she even said that if it was in her power she would have hired me on the spot....but they have to do the background check and all that. soooooo....I hope to hear from them this week. she said I would get a call by Wednesday either way. so cross your fingers!!

I haven't heard from anyplace else yet. but I'm still moving forward trying to get anything that I can. it would be nice to get something before Christmas...to make some extra money. its not something I'm going to keep forever....just till I get ahead and save enough for a car. I'm still going forward with getting a car in January. hopefully this one will last till then. just another month or so....lol

work has been ok. its a little slow. she keeps threatening me that the work is coming but I never see any of it. I kinda feel bad sometimes sitting here with nothing to do and getting paid. I'm still doing the work at home thing but that is starting to become boring and I really need to take a break from it.

Still haven't found the love of my life...but i know shes out there somewhere!! :o)

Have a good one!

Hugs, Jeannine

Here ya go...

2005-11-16T13:03:00.000-06:00

OK OK I know I've been slacking!! jeeze people
I've been slacking big time, not because my life is so busy or anything...but because there really isn't much to talk about...I guess. a few updates....

this morning Sarah came home with a kitten. I saw the mother lying in the street the other day and I felt really bad for it...then today she comes home with this kitten that is obviously her litter. really cute. we found a home for her so she'll be just fine.

home life is back to normal pretty much. things are good again. I'm happy about that.

still dating. met a few people. I do see one more than the others, and that's been nice.

I got to hang out with some friends from Wal-Mart last week. that was a blast. catching up on all the gossip. were going out again this week. Friday maybe....we'll see

I'm on the lookout for a part-time seasonal job. ill let you know how that goes. I figure...I have the time...why not make some money. I'm not looking to kill myself...a couple of days a week to make some extra money for the holidays. work on getting that car.

I've got bills and a loan due by the end of this month that is KILLING ME!!! but I can handle it.

if you want to laugh out loud and you haven't read THIS yet....you really, REALLY need too.

work has been a little slow this week.

Hey go check out my FRAPPR!! give an ole girl a shoutout!!

Netflix update: we watched Daredevil, Elektra and Unleashed this past weekend. Unleashed was really good, I enjoyed it. I enjoyed watching Elektra...she's hot. Daredevil was ok. I've got 3 more coming this week.....I forget which ones are coming.

IT'S FREAKING SNOWING TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That's about it in a nutshell!

Have a Great Day!

Thursday

2005-11-03T14:41:00.000-06:00

I'm currently at work. Bored out of my mind. Ever have those days when you just don't want to be there. Today is that day for me. However I can say that since I had some coffee and something to eat....Carrots with ranch dressing, I do feel better. I think its PMS. Here we go again.....
so tonight is my meeting. I'm not sure about this week. I'm hoping to break even. I went out more than I should this week. Thought I don't really feel like I gained.....I'm sure I did. I guess I'll find out in a couple of hours.
I do feel differences though. Even if I didn't lose anything, I know my body is changing. Yes its only 20 lbs, but I can already see differences in my clothes. I've already went down a size in my jeans. They are tight.....But they button and they fit. So I can't put them in the dryer.....I can deal with that. LOL I'm walking faster, I'm fitting in chairs I don't normally fit in. Even in my car. The changes are already there.
its a great feeling. Why would I ever want to stop this?? I plan to go all the way this time. I have my goals, and I'm sticking to them. I don't care how long it takes.....As long as the numbers go down every week.....Ill be happy. What I'm not happy about is what this weight loss is doing to my skin. The excess. Its gross. I will for sure need surgery. Its all flabby. ew
tonight were celebrating Maria's birthday. Girls night out!!! woo hoooo!!
things at home are ok. Sarah and I are doing good. We get along better at least. Its not perfect, but so much better than it was. Were not really fighting anymore. So that's always good. I hate fighting. Its so frustrating. Makes me want to leave and say fuck it.
so did I tell ya that I swapped desk's with another lady this week. On Monday actually. And I have to say...I got the better deal. LOL I got a window!!! She has walls. Poor thing. So now I can stare outside looking at the traffic as I have a view of the highway, which really isn't to bad actually. Lots of trees and I get a front row view of any accidents that might happen!! Woo hooo.....Action!!! J/k
its a lot better up here though. I'm closer to the lady that I work for and the people around me are talkative and alive. Unlike the ones around me downstairs. Snore city down there.
so I'm still have car issues. I have to bring it to the shop again cues now there is loud.....Really loud....Vibrating/rattling noise coming from the engine and I think its coming from the alternator. So this weekend I will bring to the shop and have them look at it and see what the problem is. So much damn money into this car and its not even worth it anymore!! I'm going to seriously see what my options are in getting a new/used car and maybe just work something out with Sarah for a little while. My car still needs new tires, struts, rear brakes and I really would rather just drive it till it dies and get another one and not put any more money into it. it was a great car and lasted a long time. But I think the time has come to make a change. I see a lot of work at home in my future........
which I'm sure doesn't make C happy since we've been dating pretty steadily now. Nothing to serious, just spending time getting to know each other. Its been fun though. We go to the movies, for dinner, this weekend were going to the club. That should be fun. I'm actually giving up my bingo night......I hope its worth it!! LOL j/k
I'm a little stressed, but nothing I can't handle. Mostly car and finances. This is going to be a rough month. Next month should be better. I can't believe its x-mas already. jeeze.
have a great weekend!!!
jeannine

TGIF!!

2005-10-28T17:07:00.000-05:00

There really isn't much to update. This has been a pretty good week. I took a couple of days off and still glad its Friday...LOL!! wooo hoooo!!

I went out last night with C (this girl I'm dating). Went to dinner and then went to see Flight Plan. Don't waste your money. So not worth the 9 bucks. Rent it. I was really disappointed. I thought I was going to be better. I also went to see Doom with Sarah and that was pretty good. The Fog sucked! For real!! I love going to the movies.

tonight I'm going to see my friend Stephanie (not dating..LOL) she is also the fabulous woman that cuts my hair. I swear she will never get rid of me. She totally rocks. Were going to dinner afterwards. Haven't hung out with her in a while. So that will be fun.

I don't have much planned for the weekend. I know ill be doing the work at home thing. They are paying really high this weekend....To the point of making almost $15 to 20 an hour if the calls come in back to back...And they have been. I guess with the holiday season coming up its going to start getting busier.

of course I have bingo on Saturday night. Hey did I mention I won a couple of weeks ago. Oh yes....Ten buckaroos....Come to mama!! I would have won $50 if 4 others would have kept there damn traps shut. ya old bag!!! J/k LOL

so now I'm going to take a nap. Going to meet Stephanie and then I'm working tonight making the big bucks. Oh hey! I'm moving on up as of Monday. I get a new desk on the second floor closer to the woman I work with.....Which means more work for me, which mean......Job security!!

Weight Loss Update Here!

You Readers Rock!!

Hugs, Jeannine

Signs of Life

2005-10-24T20:29:00.000-05:00

Well here I am again. Its been a pretty time for me believe it or not a life is forming around me. I've made some great friends, I've been going out, I've been dating!! woo hooo my life has gone from a dull blur to the point where the phone actually rings for ME!!! MORE THAN ONCE A DAY TOO!!

somebody stop me!!!

so work is picking up to a nice pace. There are processes that are being put into place that are finally start to gear up and make a steady stream of work for me. Its been nice. I'm starting to understand the processes and as scary as it is I'm even understanding and USING acronyms.

I'm out of control folks.....out.of.control!

Sarah and I are doing much better. I have learned to stop being a "mom" and being more of a friend than anything. She needs to live her life and make her own mistakes and I will be there to pick up the pieces if they ever do fall. And for the last 2 weeks I think....We haven't really fought and have fun with eachother. Its been nice. I also think my newfound "life" took her by surprise and she now realizes that she's not the only one who can go out and have fun. Now I find her asking me when I'm coming home.....LOL. Its funny how the tables have turned. But its all good. she's a smart person (notice I didn't say kid) and I know/hope that she won't do anything beyond her limits.

by the way.....Sarah is gay too. Not my doing do don't even go there!!! She has this girlfriend that I DO NOT LIKE. She is totally wrong for her...But again....I need to let her live her life and make her own mistakes and be there for her in the end. That's all I can do, right now.

we've set rules in the house and they are honored. And that is all I ask.

ok....You can close your mouths now....LOL

I've been kicking some serious weight loss ASS these last few weeks. You can read all about it HERE!

life in general is AOK! I'm feeling better about myself, I feel almost young again. And it feels good.

ciao!
hugs, jeannine